Origami Of Love fanfic starring TVXQ

Origami Love.

"you have been accepted into our world welcome"
I read the words on the letter i was shocked I applied for the job two years ago and had completly forgot about it until now but i get to go to Virginia in America to live now i needed to get out of this stupid country and now i can.
*what events will take place now for the girl name Kimi?*

Ch1.
"mom i gotta go my plane is here and it's last call let me go" "im gonna miss you" "we can still talk you know its not like im leaving the planet" "sure sure" "you have my cell number and my email so just let me get on with my life you know how hard ive been trying to get out of this place" "i know you better go" "goodbye mom be safe ok" "sure sure" i smiled as i made my way through the crowds towars the plane i handed the woman my ticket as i went "have a great trip" she bowed i walked quickly to the plane i was excited because the company had gotten me first class seats and two of them how awesome i made my way to my seat looking around for "seat 3a and 3b" i mumbled when i walked into some tall guy who was just stood there he turned "watch..it" "sorry" "no problem you look lost" "i am" "wheres your seat?" "3a and 3b" "you have two seats?" "yeah just incase i want to switch" i giggled nervously cos the guy was cute then he smiled as he put his bag away "i know where it is" "cool" i followedd him as he walked towards the front then he pointed to my seat "right next to ours" he smiled so i looked there was another guy sitting with shades on and headphones "thanks" "no problem enjoy the flight" "hmm" "whats hmm" "i'm kinda well sounds stupid to a complete stranger but i have never flown before" "ah well just concentrate on something else" "right thanks again" i smiled as i sat down trying to hide my face from the shame
"hey jun you being nice to strangers again?" the other guy asked taking off his shades "she didnt know where her seat was" "thats what the staff are for" this guy was kinda of an ass i wanted to smack him but instead i turned to him "you know you are kinda rude" "huh and who are you?" "no one important but it's people like you who make me wanna smack them geeze he was being nice the world needs alot more people like him" "tch" i turned away and took out my letter a re read it "jun who is she?" "i didnt get her name" "yo your name?" "huh" "are you slow i asked your name" "Baka be a little more nicer" i replied but didnt tell him my name "Jae chill geeze i know you are tired but" "shut" i so wanted to get up and hit him he got out of his seat and sat in my empty seat "you your name... please" "see how hard was it to be nice?" i watched as he pinched the skin inbetween his eyebrows and looked down "relax man geez you look as if you are gonna explode" "well" "well what?" "name" "oh sorry it's Kimi" "hello i didnt mean to sound like that just then" "what you mean like the complete ass" "yes exactly" "hmm name?" "what?" "your name" "oh right Jeajong" "ooh Korean?" "how do you know?" "because my mother is korean" "is she so where were you born?" "the Uk" "oh" "his name?" "who?" "funny your friends name" "oh junsu" "nice to meet you Jun-kun" "jun-kun?" "yes sorry my father is japanese" "right so you would be" "yes i'd be half Korean and half Japanese and yes ive heard all of the jokes too" i stared at my feet i needed some new shoes i giggled quietly "i need new shoes" i blurted then covered my mouth "strange thing to say" "and if you hadnt noticed i didnt mean to say it" "right well it was fun talking to you Kimi-chan" "yeah" i watched as he walke back to his seat Junsu glaring at him for suddenly being so nice which led him to teasing jea, i took my shoes off so my feet would relax yes i know public place and all but my feet dont smell, hmm bathroom i needed it now so i searched for it eventually asking a host where it was he took me right to it.

"yo her shoes" "what about them?" "whats her shoe size" "what?" "i wanna know" "why?" "nevermind i do it myself" Jea looked at the size and then quicky got back to his seat i skipped back to my seat Junsu glaring at me as i tied up my shoes suddnely i remided myself i was on a plane and began to panic "you ok?" "oh yeah just slightly panicking" "why?" "erm im on a plane" "and?" "i dont like heights much" "oh erm well just close your eyes and think you are somewhere else" "no" "why?" "cos if i close my eyes i will fall asleep" "well then sleep it is a long flight" "but i dont want to wake up and im the only one here" "you wont besides i will wake you before we land ok" "ok" i was surprised at his kindness i wasnt used to it but i went to sleep i dreamt of a fire clearing a field and i was stood in the middle helping the flames when i felt a hand on my head i opened my eyes "erm wakey wakey" "thanks" "no problem by the way not to be rude or anything but have you eaten at all?" "huh?" "your stomach was growling" "oh right erm well" "here" he handed me a small see through packet with two rice crakers in i knew what they were because i had a bag full of them and they were my fave things to eat.
"thanks" "no problem" "we are getting off now erm you need help?" "no i got it thanks" i grabbed my bag and went to find my others following junsu and jeajong to the terminal i searched for my bags and when i found them i pulled them off the twirly thing and onto a trolly and struggled towards the doors to leave and go to my new home.

ch2
the bags fell from the trolly as i went outside it was cold "hey you need help" "huh?" "i help you" "erm again thanks" "no problem" "jea we need to get our of here before.." "shut up" "oh sorry" "look junsu she needed help besides wast it you who told me to be nicer?" "true but fans" "but none are here" "yet" "look its ok i can get this myself" i looked as a girl stood taking photogrpahs on her cellphone and looked as Jea and Junsu covered their faces pretty quick "erm where are you headed?" "Virginia" "us too come on we take you quick" Jun-kun grabbed my bags and ran with them to a car shoving them into the boot and Jea running after him "come on" he yelled as the girl carried on taking pictures i glared at her then walked towards her snatching her phone and looking through the pics all were of us i felt sick "hey you know this is invasion of privacy you know" "and?" "and i get to take these away" "waht no you cant" "watch me" i deleted the pics and took the memory card from her phone then handed her phone back then skipped to the car "what the?" "she was taking photos of you guys" "and?" "i deleted them and took her memory card" "why?" "because it was just rude" "we are used to it" "huh?" "just get in before others come" i saw the look on thier faces did i do something wrong? i got into the car and sat quietly as Jeajong rove into the town i was going to be living "so where you live?" "here" i handed him the paper with the address on he laughed as he showed junsu who looked at me "we're staying here to" "what?" "next door to be exact" "oh erm do i feel stupid" "why?" "i dunno i mean you guys just made me feel like i had done something wrong" "you didnt it was just the way you handled the girl it was shocking" "why?" "becasue we have never seen it done like that" "sorry" "its awesome" i sat quietly as they began to speak korean i didnt know the language my parents didnt teach me then when the car stopped i wanted out so i fell out and lay on the floor "erm what are you?" "i fell" "right" "true she did i saw the whole thing" another guy walked towards the car "hey glad to see you guys" "yes long flight" "and who is this clumsy thing?" "we met her on the plane" "met?" "met as in Junsu helped her" "ah" "but it was you who she put in place" "huh?" "yeah he was being all grumpy and she joined in and yelled at him" "nice one" "thanks erm my bags?" "oh yeah sorry" i watched as they pulled them out placing them onto the ground i grabbed my bags and ran to my new home and looked for the keys but couldnt find them "erm i am confuzzled" "by what?" "im supposed to be living here but the company havent left the keys" "ah right that i guess these belong to you" the new guy handed me the keys, i unlocked the door and looked inside it was decorated in whites the living room was dark red with black i looked further into the living room and screamed "what?" "Piano" "yeah and?" "this was my fathers i thought she got rid of it" "oh heres a note it was stuck to it" he handed me the note it read "Kimi-chan i told your mother on the day of your 23 birthday that my piano was to be given to you,i know how much you loved to play it with me, i made sure that if i was gone before your birthday then it had to be given to you and no one else i know your mother favours the others over you but truthfully you are my fave i am proud..." i stopped reading it i couldnt it was too sad so Junsu grabbed it "i am proud of you daughter even though i split from your mother i will always love her she is and always will be my love, be strong in all you do and you will succeed, and yes i know that you think love will never find you but believe in love and it will find you eventually just keep the faith, Kimi my Kimi your heart is good and true fly pretty bird fly, fly free my beautiful Kimi i love you~Father~" i let him read even though we had just met i felt attatched to him "wow this is a beautiful piano" "huh?" the new guy was sat infront of the keys staring at it i watched as he smiled.

ch3
"erm name?" i asked as i watched him turn to me "Yoochun" "another Korean" "whats wrong with Koreans?" he asked looking mad "chill she's half Korean dude" "and let me guess" he walked around looking at me then he put his head next to mine and smiled i felt like hitting him in the nose "the other half is Japanese?" "how?" "your eyes" "huh erm welli better get unpacked" "yeah" Jeajong brought in the rest of my bags and dropped them on the floor "guys we gotta" "yeah sorry"
"hey nice meeting you" "you too" i smiled as they all left yoochun was the last to leave closing the door behind him.
i stood looking around and sighed as i stared at the piano my father the goofball he got into a fight at work and some shelves fell on him crushing his chest ever since then my family hadnt been the same and began to resent me but hey i got away and i met some pretty cute guys too.
i grabbed my bags and pulled them up to my room i looked out of the window there was another room right across mine but i ignored it i went back to unpacking my stuff and placing my clothes into their places in the space.
"thank you father" i smiled as i went downstairs and sat at the piano there was a small note stuck in between the keys "Kimi i got a song for you ~father~" i looked in the seat where we kept the music sheets there it was my fave song then i looked underneath and there was another song but without a title so i placed the untitled song infront of me on the piano,
i hadnt learned to play the piano i just liked to hear it but now was the time to learn i guess i mean i could play it but not great.
i began to play the song pretty badly so i stopped and sighed "i cant do this" i mumbled as i looked at the time "ah late" i went to bed hopefully the morning would be better for me.
The morning arrived and shone through the house i had found out who the room across from mine belonged to i saw last night as i walked around in the darkness it was Yoochun's i walked downstairs after getting dressed when a knock on the door scare me i went to see who it was when it opened "Kimi?" "eh erm why are you able to get in here?" "i have keys my parents own the house" "oh" at this point i could swear i had a arrow pointing to me with the word stupid written all over it "erm anyway" "what?" "i wanted to see if you needed anything.. why do you have cereal in your hair?" "argh what oh the box fell on me" "right so you need anything?" "erm what makes you think i need anything?" "because last night you were wondering around in the dark i saw you through my window" "eh hehe why were you looking?" "my desk is under my window i was sat writing stuff and i saw you by the way nice jammies" "eh bunny" "yeah cute hmm so?" "so what?" "you need anything?" "oh yes more origami paper you know where i can get some?" "you do origami?" "no well im trying to make a crane or a swan but it doesnt turn out so good see" i showed hima ball of white paper it was supposed to have been a swan he laughed taking tp ball out of my hands "i know how to make them" "teach me?" "another time" "aww k" i bowed my head as he glared at me then the others walked in "yo" "ok why do people keep walking into my apartement" "ah sorry we used to use this as our hangout" "erm i live here now so" "right we will leave" "no its ok i gotta go check in at work so feel free to carry on as you did i dont mind unless you eat all of my rice crackers i will have to hurt you" "ooh ok rice crackers off llimit" "well see ya" i smiled as i walked outside and made my way to work i stopped at the reception desk "erm im supposed to work here but im lost" "name please" "huh?" "we have a list of newcomers" "ah right my name is Kimi Yamamoto" i watched as the woman looked at the list and sighed "its not on here" "huh but i got this letter" "lemme see" i handed her the letter "this isnt from us see" she showed me the logo "oh erm do i feel stupid" "it's ok dont be erm maybe i can get you a meeting with the boss you have any skills and such?" "yes" i handed her my file she looked through it and gasped "wow you are skilled you'd be more perfect here then our boss well i will try set up a meeting but i really think you should make up your own company" "thanks well have a nice day miss?" "sonia my names sonia" "ok nice to meet you bye" i bowed she seemed nice i went back home and found the guys playing video games so i walked up stairs and flew onto my bed hiding my face in my pillow "erm something wrong?" "no" "erm i ate a few packets of the crackers sorry" i shot up "how many? erm 12" i looked at him "Junsu you know you will have to replace them?" "i will sorry but they are my fave" "mine too" i lay back down and sighed as he stood there i didnt know what he was thinking.
"kimi-chan you seem down" "well yeah im lying down on the bed" "funny i mean never mind" "hey whats this?" i forgot i had just thrown my file on the floor Junsu picked it up.
"kimi Yamamoto skills:singing,lockpicking,her own style of weaponry{can fight with steel fans}, cooking,high ranked with maths and science, patented her own brand of fans, won the fith, sixth and seventh Karate championships etc" he read aloud i hated the words i just wanted to be me and not all of that.

ch4
"kimi you did all of this?" "erm yeah dont tell anyone" "but you should be proud of all of this" "no" i grabbed the file from him and hid it under my bed "you tell anyone and i well i guess id be sad" "i wont" "good and thanks" he glared at me "you sing too?" "huh?" "the CD" "what CD" "this one" "oh erm that was.." "wow is this you?" "erm yeah i used to cosplay and sing songs as the character" "cool" "yeah my ipod is full of me" i giggled "you listen to other bands?" "nope just me" "erm ok can i hear?" "no" i smiled grabbing the CD i went downstairs and sat in the kitchen "Kimi erm can you cook?" "yes why let me guess you hungry?" "yeah can you make us something?" "can you get me some help then" "whith what?" "yo Yoochun help please?" "i shouted as he ran in "sure" "erm plates and bowls and stuff i dont know where they are?" "oh here" he took out two bowls and stuff "what are you making?" "the Kimi special" "the what?" "the kimi special just shut up and help" "ok" i made mini curry bread with peanut mash potato balls i made Yoochun taste it first "woah this is" "i know horried right i must be the only one who likes it" "no baka i mean wow this is yummy" "really?" "yeah mines already gone see" "wh.. i just served it it was still hot" "i know" "baka" i giggled as Yoochun called the others to sit at the table luckly there was enough for more for Yoochun i served them the plates and went inside "you not eating?" "nope well i will do later" i looked one person was missing "erm where is junsu?" "dunno" "hey sit and eat you look sick" "huh not a nice thing to say to a girl" "yeah Jeajong" i smiled as i grabbed a plate and placed some of the food on then sat at the tabel with the others it reminded me of home i kinda missed it "yoochun go get junsu" "im eating" "fine Yo Jun get your butt down here food is up" next thing he ran right our of the house and sat down there were others here too i was kinda scared of one "erm who?" "ah right he is Changmin and that one is Yunho" "erm nice to meet you" "yep same" "ok i want more" "erm yoochun you will get fat" "what no way anyways this is so yummy" "its ok i havent touched mine you can have it" "really?" "yeah i will get something later" "aww lookit they are already sharing" "yeah it's like they are married" "baka" i glared at them talking so i moved away which led them into a huge laughing fit "ok well i'm going" "where?" "leave you guys alone" "aww you upset her now" "i'm not upset besides i got to practice something" "ooh yeah like your origami" "baka" "wait she cant do origami" "nope" i stood glaring at yoochun before going inside and sitting at the piano looking at the sheet music i pressed key when Yunho walked in "can you play?" "not very well" "hmm let me see?" "sure" he stood behind me and read the sheet "hmm nice song" i looked at the keys then stood up "hmm" "mind if i try it?" "go ahead" i watched as he sat and began to play the notes drifted towards me "why are you crying?" "huh im not" "it looks like you were going to" "i wasnt..it's the song it just reminds me of something" "ah something specail?" "nope something i kinda lost out on" "oh you seem to lose out on alot of things" "hey not everything i did win three karate championships in a row" "woah" he glared at me suddenly i didnt feel scared of him it was more like i was like his little sister "yo fool we gotta get places" "sure sure nice meeting you little kimi-chan" "you too" i sat back at the piano as they left "erm kimi did i upset you today?" "no yoochun" "if i did i didnt mean to i just dunno how to act around you" "erm normally would be great" "huh i mean sure" "well its not like we like each other right well then just be yourself no matter how goofy or strange it is" "sure well if you need anything" "yep you were supposed to teach me how to make an origami swan" "ah right i will sometime..by the way that song is called Bolero" he smiled then left in a hurry forgetting to close the door i went to close it but saw the guys goofing around taking shots at yoochun because of something.

ch5.
i woke in the middle of the night i dunno who decorated my room but why did they place the bed right infront of the window so as i sat up i could see right into the other room i sat up and looked around the light in the other room turned on and yoochun walked in with nothing but a towel i lay back down before he saw me but i swung my arm and turned the lamp on by accident "argh baka" i whispered then *bang* a rock hit my window so i went over and looked yoochun sat holding up a peice of paper with writing on "you ok?" so i wrote back stupidly on a duck shaped paper "yes im ok" he wrote back "if you want we can talk" "sure through paper XD" "yeah if you want" "arent you busy" "with what?" "your friends" "they are asleep" "oh erm well" "what?" "put a shirt on you will get sick" "funny ok" "im awesome" "yeah and im the master" "cute" "what is?" "you" "huh oh why am i?" "you just are" "oh ok well then" "then?" "then you are cute too" "erm thanks XD" "yeah so erm" "erm?" "are you busy?" "nope" "why are you awake?" "nightmare" "you ok?" "yes nightmares cant kill me" "funny" "i hate this thing" "what thing?" "where my bed is" "oh i put it there" "well then i changed my mind" "about what?" "the bed baka!" "oh" "i like it here" "bet you do" "ok dont try be funny" "thank you" "for what?" "being you" "oh well then no problem" "goodnight" "goodnight"
it was fun to admit it talking alone with yoochun even though it wasnt actual talking more like code or something i went to sleep with a smile on my face for some reason i woke up to noise in the living room in the morning so i threw myself out of bed and down the stairs "what the erm did you just throw youself from the top of the stairs?" "yeah and why are you all here again?" "erm you not hurt?" "no no please explain why i got up to video games?" "eh erm junsu did it" i looked the realised i was still in my jammies "argh crap crap crap" i panicked as i tried to run up the stairs but ended up tripping and falling up them "she is pretty grumpy" "dude you did just wake her up at 6 am in the morning" "and?" "and getting up to such a crap game is annoying i beat this thing in half an hour" "huh no way i am the best at this thing and i still havent completed it" "give it here" i took hold of the controller and beat the game for the second time "how the?" "simple" "ok how about you fight against me" "sure i will beat you too" Junsu and i chose our characters "so i will choose the stupidest character so you will have a chance" "blah" i chose the training dummy he chose the boss character "round 1 fight" "player one wins" "how the it had only just started i only took one step" "i am good" "best two out of three?" "sure" "yo guys kimi just beat junsu at his game" "what no one has" "watch" the guys sat in the living room all except yoochun i hadnt seen him "round 1 fight"..."player one wins" "woah junsu shes a girl" "and?" "ok i give you win" "aww ok next match?" "sure" "round one fight"..."player two wins" "yey you win" "yes told you" i let him win and they all knew it except him yoochun walked in holding a bag "kimi" "yuppers" "origami?" "sure" "erm yunho dont we need to go somwhere today?" "yep come on junsu you need to calm down" "what i am calm" yunho kicked him "ah ok i need to calm down" changmin followed yunho and junsu outside "ok so we will meet up later" "sure" Jee-kun left closing the door behind him i stood glaring "well that wasnt weird one little bit" "yeah i wonder" "hmm be right back" "ok" i skipped into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water then went back to yoochun "so swan right?" "yep" "see you fold it like this and then this" "stop im just lost now see" i held out a scrunched peice of paper "ok ok erm maybe origami isnt for you" "maybe but the swan is pretty" "aww maybe i make one for you" "really?" "sure why not" i watched as he folded the paper it looked easy but i couldnt do it "here ya go" he handed me the swan "thankies" i coldnt stop staring at it "i guess you like it" "yep so your friends seem a little nervous of other people" "yeah it's because of the fans" "fans of what?" i sat staring at him..

ch6
"you dont know?" "hmm know what?" "nevermind" "oh ok" "what wrong?" "nothing" "tell me i can see it" "see what?" "something wrong ive only known you for a few days and even i know when something is wrong with you" "hmm its just that.." "just what?" "i dont like being lied to" "well if i tell you i will have to kill you" "what really?" "no not really baka" "oh" "well you see we are a band and we are taking a little break" "band what band?" "DBSK" "never heard" "what?" "seriously i never heard of you" "ah awesome not a fan then?" "nope oh hey i guess you will have to worry about my friends though" "why?" "they might know your band" "right well i guess if they come visit we make a plan" "yeah reminds me they are flying in next week" "ok" "i will tell them that you are a cosplayer if they see you ok?" "sure sure" i sat as he made another swan he had a smile on his face it looked like he was trying not to laugh. for the next couple of nights Yoochun and i spent them talking in messages to each other through our windows was this becoming our thing?.
we were pertty funny together i kinda liked him but to be his girlfriend wasnt an option for me because to guys i was never anything more then friends which didnt bother me until now because i think i really liked yoochun alot but even if we were to just stay friends it would be ok.
the morning rose and we hadnt even slept we were too busy writing messages to each other "hey!" "yeah?" "you kept me awake" "you too XD" "yoochun?" "yes?" "i think this is our thing" "yeah we do this every night" "are you upset?" "about what?" "this the message thing?" "no are you?" "no how could i.." "how could you what?" "be upset when i'm.." "your what?" "i'm getting to talk to you.." "aww so sweet i like.." "like what?" "our thing" "me too" "Kimi?" "yeah?" "i like you" "aww i like you too" "cool" "yeah" "ok final message cos we gotta sleep" "yeah" "goodnight" "you too" i watched as he bowed with a smile on his face which made me giggle but i decided to write something and stick it on my window then went downstairs and looked at my mail "darn why did i write that i better take it down before anyone sees it." i yelled as i ran out of the door forgetting about the paper in my window i was to stupid to go back and get it.
"hey where you going?" "ah Junsu erm i gotta go look for a job" "dont you already have one?" "i thought i did i mean they paid for the house and everything" "confused?" "me too" "well i erm here is your ipod" "huh?" "i took it i like your songs" "eh!" i stood shocked i knew people bought my CD's but i didnt know they actually listened to them "you didnt tell anyone else did you?" "erm well" "yo that girl is awesome" Changmin stepped in "erm" "he sorta knows to" "yeah Kimi dont worry i wont tell it was you i will act along ok" "thank you" "erm i gotta go chu see you later ok?" "good" i sorta skipped and ran at the same time trying to get away from them not in a bad way just i was too nervous and i didnt want to be sick i spent a few hours searching for jobs but some reason no one wanted to hire me even with my skills "hmm no luck here either i think i should start my own business" i giggled as i made my way back home it was strange none of the guys were there so i felt a little lost i went inside and made my way to my room to take off the paper then i noticed something "dont go anywhere!" yoochun had written back but what did he mean by the dont go anywhere wait i wrote "i think i kinda really like you!" this was kinda confusing so i sat on my bed and looked around *knock knock* i slowly walked down the stairs to answer the door there he stood with a serious look on his face.

ch7
"erm you ok?" "i'm perfect erm we need to talk" "sorry i didnt mean to write that i.." "shh let me in" "erm oh ok" i let him into the house and closed the door then watched with a confused look on my face as he sat infront of the piano "erm Yoochun?" "i'm leaving" "what erm good luck" "no i mean i am leaving on tour i will be back" "oh well then good luck" "funny we wont be able to do our thing whilst im away" "thats ok" "kimi?" "what?" "you ok?" "yeah" "erm well then why are you crying?" i didnt know i was crying cos if you were you'd be able to feel it but i didnt the tears just fell "im not crying" "then why are your tears falling?" "i dont know" "dont cry its not forever" "i know i was just.." "i know you really kinda like me" "yeah you read the note then?" "yeah it's ok hey i was thinking if you need anything my parents said they'd help" "your parents said that?" "yeah i told them about you seeing as you live next to them" "aww" "dont aww me" "sorry" "chu its ok hey this song sounds pretty you play this?" "i cant play im trrying to but i keep getting it wrong" "hmm i can help if you want" he waved to me to sit next to him i was kinda nervous so i walked slowy towards him and sat next to him i looked at the keys "nervous?" "a little this is my fave song and i dont want to ruin it" "let me play it for you then this song is one of ours you know and then we can both play it ok?" "sure" i sat watching him as he played the song i wanted the song to go on forever "aww" i heard him say as he poked my nose i had somehow not knowingly cuddled into him as he played "ah sorry i didnt" "relax i didnt say anything" i jumped up and turned away "Kimi im gonna miss you whilst im away" "huh dont im not worth the trouble" "huh where did that come from?" "sorry i didnt its just that no one takes the time to even care about me and all of this is kinda strange to me" "aww well get used to it you are one of the family now" "funny" "i mean it you are a new member of DBSK" "yoochun!" i went to run to him but tripped and fell into his arms but that was only because he caught me if he didnt id be on the floor now "be careful" "sorry" i hid my face "you are really clumsy" "i know" "im surprised you havent gotten hurt" "me too erm you can put me down now" "oh right sorry" he scratched his head as we stood looking at the piano "erm you wanna try now?" "sure but no laughing" "would i do that?" he pulled a goofy face which made me wanna laugh "yes you would" "?" "dont give me that look besides i like your laugh" "really" "yep so the song" "oh yeah well i help ok" "sure sure" we sat playing the piano i made alot of mistakes but laughed them off "no like this here" he placed his hands on mine and guided them across the keys as we played each note strange feeling though when he touched my hands it felt like i had been shocked by static you know the saying that sparks will fly if two perfect lovers come across each other? well thats what it felt like only i pretended nothing was wrong it made me wonder if he felt it too? suddenly i pulled them away and got up as quick as i could "something wrong you were doing well" "erm i just i will be right back" "ok" he smiled did he know he did something or was he just playing along?
i walked outside holding my hands when my lights in the house went out it was complete darkness i sat on the ground i didnt like the dark so sitting on the ground in a ball was the only thing i could do.
"kimi you ok i cant see you?" i didnt answer him i just sat there stiff "Kimi?" then he tripped over me he fell onto the floor "s..sorry" "you ok?" "you ok right you fell over me?" "i'm ok but why are you sat there?" "too dark" "you afraid?" "no" "you sure?" "yes im sure" i was lying i had been afraid of the dark since being locked in a room alone when i was a kid i was trying to geet away from some girls trying to beat on me.
suddenly he placed his hands on my eyes "open your eyes" "no" "it's ok i got you" "i cant open them" "trust me" i sat there i wanted to trust him i did trust him i just was scared he pulled me closer to him but kept my eyes covered "open your eyes the lights will come back on soon" "im scared" "i got you" "chu?" "yes Chu" i smiled he said chu i opened my eyes slowly my face was buried into his shirt on his chest i could feel his heart beating "you sure are strange kimi" "sorry" "it's ok here i got a light on my cellphone" he handed me his phone to hold as he went to sort the lights out after five minutes the light on his cell went out i didnt know how to fix it.

ch8.
i stood up and ran right inside it was dark and i had seen way too many horror movies i ran through the kitchen and into the living room and then ran right into Yoochun "argh" i screamed covering my face "woah relax its me calm down" i was shaking i was too scared "aww you are shaking" "phone light went out i dont know how too" is all i could get out before running upstairs and under my bed "Kimi here i made it so it stays on until you press the button erm where are you?" "under here" i whispered grabbing at his leg as he stood next to my bed "erm why?" "my hiding place" "oh" he bent down to the floor and handed me his phone i yawned "tired?" "yeah" "sleep then" "cant too dark" "well if your eyes are closed you wont see it" "no but i know its dark so" "right hey idea" "chu?" "yes chu i will stay with you so if the dark monster tries anything he will have to get past me" he laughed trying to make me feel better but instead it just made him seem silly "chu thank you" "chu no problem" he smiled as he went around to the otherside of the bed and crawled under "see feel better?" "a little" "see" "see what?" "im like your teddy bear" "funny" "thank you" "erm" "whats wrong now?" "nothing is wrong i just your on my skirt" "ah sorry here" he moved a little as he moved my skirt from under him "thanks" "nice" "whats nice wait did you see something you shouldnt have?" "no i just meant this is nice" he giggled i knew he was lying but i liked him so it was ok "yoochun?" "yes?" "goodnight" "nite nite" i placed his phone next to my head suddenly he wrapped his arms around me and pulled closer my eyes opened "you dont mind?" he whispered "no it's warm and comfortable" "yeah i dont mind this either" "chu?" "yes chu i dont mind spending this time with you" "yoochun?" "i heart chu" "i heart chu too" we both giggled we both liked saying the word chu "kimi?" "yeah?" "dream of me ok?" "huh sure" "good" i went to sleep as i lay in his arms in the morning we woke up under the bed still he smiled at me i just lay blinking "nice dreams?" "yep" truthfully i didnt dream i couldnt dream i never had i just didnt want to seem more lame than i already did "my cell helped" "yes thank you here" i handded him the phone before crawling from under the bed and stretching my arms "hey i will be gone for six months will you be ok?" "yeah unless the lights do the same" "just think i am with you ok" "ok" "aww chu cute" "chu?" "yes chu so the song we were playing you know it well?" "i only now know the title cos you told me" "yeah its one of ours" "huh?" "see so you know us" "no just that song and i didnt even know who it was by cos my father played it alot" "well you wanna hear the real song?" "erm sure" "ok well i will be right back" "chu" he smiled after i said chu yes i say it alot then i watched as he went out of the room i went downstairs and into the kitchen to grab some rice crackers "hey so here" Yoochun handed me a CD i stood looking at it "cute chu" "what is?" "the guy on this side" i pointed to him "oh well of course i had to be" he laughed taking the CD and placing it in the stereo and pressed play the song began to play i stood with him listening to it "wow i like it" "me too" "funny" "so i may have to become a fan of the band now" i giggled "well at least if you were you wouldnt be all crazy" "nope cos im not like every other girl" "true you are our cute little kimi" he smiled as he placed his hand on my shoulder now i knew he didnt feel anything for me i was sad but hey at least i get to talk to him "so whene are you leaving?" "what cant you wait to get rid of me?" "no not like that baka" "hmm no i just wanted to cook the kimi special for everyone before you left" "ah awesome ok deal well we leave at the weekend" "ok so i will cook friday then" "sure i tell the others and i look forward to it" "sure sure".
It was tuesday already so i made sure i spent alot of time with yoochun we did our message thing everynight then friday came i was sad but i didnt want to show it.

ch8
"chu so i have set everything up" "cool you made sure you have lots for yoochun?" "ah yes yoochun i made sure i made lots" i was sat talking to yunho and changmin when the slight mention of yoochun made my heart flutter "so Kimi is there something you want to tell us?" Changmin looked yunho glraed at him "what no erm i dont understand?" "well everytime we mention yoochun you get this smile on your face" "no i dont" "see you just did it again" yunho looked at me "i get it" "you do well please explain it to me" i asked him i knew what he knew but "i think our lil kimi is in love" "huh no way yoochun and i are just friends" "yes but you want to be more" this time Junsu walked in holding a box "not true" "are you sure?" "yes" junsu handed me the box i didnt open it i just placed it under the chair i was sitting on then Jeejong walked in "hey so kimi i got a gift for you" "huh?" "remember when we first met?" "yes you were a complete ass" "yes well anyways i got you this" he handed me a pink and white box tied with a white ribbon i opened it and inside were a cute pair of shoes "you said you needed a new pair of shoes when we first met" "chu yes i did but.." "chu i got these for you" "thanks Hero" "Hero?" "yeah my hero i needed new shoes so you are my shoe hero" i giggled but he looked at me confused then he smiled "hero not a bad name i might keep it" junsu and changmin looked at him "i gotta check on something in the kitchen" i made up an excuse and left in a hurry i stood infront of the cooker when Yunho walked in "you ok?" "yeah i mean no i mean yes sorry" "you are not ok are you?" "truthfully no" "i can see that so you need help?" "with what?" "whatever you want?" "erm i can tell you something right and you wont tell anyone?" "sure" "chu?" "yes chu" "pinky promise?" "yes here pinky promise" he held out his pinky i wrapped mine around his "yunho i..am in love with.." "yoochun!" he interupted "erm how?" "because its something i can tell besides he could do worse" "but nothing will ever happen i know that for sure" "why?" "because im always the friend never the girlfriend" "well even if thats true we will still be there for you and you will always be our little kimi" he patted my head then yoochun walked in "whats going on?" "nothing we were just talking cos your little kimi was upset" yunho called me yoochuns as a test to see if he said i wasnt his but he didnt "aww why is my chu upset?" yoochun walked towards yunho who whispered something then left "because i dropped a plate" "ah it's ok here" he handed me a swan "aww i love it thank you" "not a problem i.." he turned and went into the living room with the others i served the food onto plates then placed them on the table then yelled for them to join i sat at the end of the table a little away from the others i watched as they all talked and joked "so kimi how are you gonna cope with out us around?" "easy the same way i have been before i met you" "oh we got served" "yes you did" i giggled then i noticed yoochun glareing at me "hmm everything ok?" "oh erm yeah just" "oh he is upset now" "huh why?" "because you only gave me one portion of the kimi special" yoochun sulked we all giggled so i went inside and got out another plate and put some more on when he walked in grabbed my arm and led me into the living room "kimi whats really going on?" "nothing" "not what yuhno has been telling me" "he doesnt know whats going on either" "dont lie" "im not" "so why do you always look upset its since i told you i was going on tour kimi" "i.. i baka how can you not see it" "see what?" "see exactly nevermind just it doesnt matter we are friends right?" "yes" "so then lets just stay friends.." "what's..." i walked away "its what i always to guy always the friend never anything else" i lowered my head and went back to the table i moved over to jeejong and junsu i sat inbetween them "you ok?" "yes perfect everything is fine" yoochun walked out and sat in my previous place "yoochun?" "yep?" "whats going on?" "nothing i just asked her somethings" "so why is she upset?" "i dunno" "im not upset guys see im happy" i lied and yunho saw it when everyone had finished i stayed to clean up "you need help?" "sure thanks" "so yoochun he was upset" "he was why?" "i dunno he just went quiet and packed his stuff" "im sure he is ok" "yeah but are you?" "look i am fine i have been rejected many times only.." "only this is worse cos you actually love him?" "yes but i will get over it eventually" "true but its gona be hard" "junsu thank you" "no problem" "hey so nice new haircut" "yeah i needed a change" "hmm you know youd look cute with long white hair" "really?" "yosh" "haha ok hmm well i had it like that once" "huh lemme see?" "sure erm i have a picture somewhere tell you what i will find it and email you ok?" "ok you know im gonna miss you guys" "im gonna miss you and the rice crackers you hide well try to hide" "yo jun we gotta get going" "your going tonight?" "yeah i though yoochun told you" "nope he just said weekend" "ah well six months will pass then we can all hang out again" "yeah" jeejong walked in "erm guys?" "what?" "i need to just speak to kimi a second" "ok" "thanks junsu" junsu took the rest of the dishes inside whilst Hero walked next to me "kimi?" "yep?"

ch9
"you know yoochun has had alot of girls right?" "no but i do now" "yeah so he gets kinda stuck when someone actually cares about him" "and?" "he likes you but doesnt know what to do" "well there is a difference between like and love" "you love him?" "yes" "ah so erm maybe he feel the same someday" "im not gonna wait forever" hero scratched his head "i know but just wait a little longer ok?" "sure" "well we gotta go bye" it looked like he was going to sorta cry until junsu and changmin walked in "come on" i watched as they left i felt like my heart was breaking i couldnt breath my last chance to say bye to yoochun but he didnt even say goodbye to me i ran out of the house and yelled to yoochun "chu!" i yelled he turned round and smiled "Yes Chu!" i cried i wanted to run to him but i just stood there as they all stared then yoochun dropped his bags and ran towards me "chu!" "chu" i replied we liked saying chu it had become our thing aswell as the paper messages then he hugged me "just be safe for me" "chu" "yes chu kimi im gonna miss you" "i will always be here forever and always thats my promise to you" "chu?" "yes chu yoochun i..l." "yo yoochun we gotta get going" hero yelled yoochun looked and smiled then kissed my cheek before running to the car i watched as they drove away then fell to the floor "kimi are you ok?" "ah yes perfect" "come on inside" it was his mom she helped me to my feet and took me inside and gave me a cup of tea she could see something was on my mind "you love him ont you?" "yes but im ok with just being a friend to him" "its going to get painful" "i know" "you need to tell him" "i will when i get a chance to" over the next six months yoochuns parents and i spent alot of time talking about yoochun and what i should do next i told them i wanted to start my own business and how i wanted to sing again too eventually six months had passed and it was the night yoochun was coming home i didnt want to see him but before i could go to my house i was stuck in the living room of his parents when he walked in he looked tired but had a smile on his face "mom ive kinda well im dating someone we met on tour" i stood up and walked out passing right by yoochun i walked over to my apartment i wasnt upset i just really wanted to go to sleep so i lay on my bed then got up and close my beroom door before going back to me bed.
"i didnt know kimi was here" "it's ok shes just tired" "oh well erm this is the girl" "ah nice" "yes she is" yoochun left the photo of him and his girlfriend on the side then went into the shower.
I lay on my bed thinking "hmm that was quick" but then i did promise id be there for him no matter what and i always will be even if he has got a girl now im happy for him suddenly my door opened "erm you asleep?" i turned my head round to see junsu and hero standing there "no not asleep" "can we come in?" "erm arent you already?" "oh well" "just close the door behind you then" "sure" i sat up as they walked in hero closed the door behind him before falling onto a beanbag in the corner of my room junsu sat on the end of my bed "so did you guys have fun?" "yes lots oh here i founf the pic for you" junsu handed me a photo "aww wow see you look awesome with this hair" "he does" hero interupted "hey so why are you hiding in here?" "im not i just" "i take it you know about yoochun then?" "yes he just blurted it out i dont think he saw me sitting there" "ah well its his loss" "thanks guys but im not angry" "but you love him" "so doesnt mean i have to be angry at him im happy for him" "aww how sweet" "besides its not like he knows how i feel about him and it will eventually pass all i gotta do is find someone else" i giggled as i took out my CD "kimi is cool" hero smiled we sat talking when junsu stood up and grabbed my shoulder "ouch what then" then he just hgged me out of nowhere "we are all here for you kimi" he whispered "erm dude she cant breath" "ah sorry" he let me go i grabbed my pillow wanting to hit him "erm well thanks for that junsu" "yeah erm sorry" hero laughed then stood up opening the door "well i guess we better let you get some sleep then" he smiled then left junsu sat glaring at me i felt strange..

ch10
"erm arent you going with him?" i stood up walking over to the door pointing him to leave Junsu stood up and walked over to me "Fly free kimi" then left i fell to the floor only one person ever said those words to me and he died "fly free kimi i would fly free but there was no one to come back to i didnt want to fly free unless i had someone i could come home to" i went over to my bed and sat on the end i would usually look out of my window but now i wouldnt dare to.
"hey you know Kimi loves you right" "huh?" "yoochun you nee to see whats right infront of you" his mother placed a photo of myself and yoochun next to yoochun and his girlfriend "what am i supposed to do with this?" "ask yourself if you are truly happy" his mom smiled before leaving him alone the photo of him and i was taken when we were in his garden we were having alot of fun it was the first time in years i have truly smiled we looked happy together like there wasnt anyone else there and it was just the two of us but hey if he is happy with her then i am happy for him.
I woke in the middle of the night i didnt turn my light on i just sat up and looked around then i noticed the light was on in his room i looked there was a peice of paper in his window "sorry Kimi" i sniffled what was he saying sorry for he hadnt done anything wrong i got up and ran downstairs Hero and Junsu were sat talking when i just flew right past them and out of the door i stood on the pavement "yoochun" i yelled for him he walked out of the house "kimi?" "dont say anything just listen" "it's late" "shh just shut up" he stood glaring at me "you dont need to say sorry if you are happy with her and i mean truly happy then go for it i shouldnt matter to you if you love her then i shouldnt matter so please dont think of me think of yourself remember my promise it sticks no matter what" i sniffled before walking inside and sitting infront of the piano much to hero and junsu's shock i began to press keys suddenly Hero walked over taking my hands off the keys before leading me to the sofa pushing me onto it then going back to the piano and began to play my favourite song Junsu sat next to me "it's ok just let it go" "let what go i am ok" "really?" suddenly i felt myself lean on Junsu and began to cry as hero played the song "Hero i think it finally hit her" "yeah well she's bound to be upset considering how she feels about him" "hey guys thank you" "its ok" Hero stood up and left the house leaving Junsu and i on the sofa "Kimi" "im ok thanks fo..." before i could end the sentance Junsu had placed his lips on mine pushing me backwards i didnt know what i had to do but if this was how i was gonna get over yoochun then should i do anything? i pushed him away then got off the sofa "Junsu?" "it's my fault" "why?" before he could answer Hero walked back in "hey so yoochun wants us over with him" "ok" Junsu left quickly i stood shaking nervously "you ok?" "oh yep im fine nothing happened im great" "wait were you two just in the middle of something?" "nope" "did he?" "he what?" "wait Kimi ah i get it you and Junsu have something dont you?" "no way it was just a friendly kiss nothing more" "Eh so you two kissed?" "did i say that i dont think i did" "but yoochun?" "yoochun means everything to me besides he has made it clear i mean nothing to him and besides it was just a friendly kiss nothing more" "right well i wont tell" "it doesnt matter if you did cos it is nothing" "right well then nite" Hero left smiling i sat back down on the sofa then picked up the swan yoochun had made me i stared at it.
i went to the piano and began to play a random note suddenly i felt the need to sing as i began to play the piano alot better then i ever had, "the swan of me becomes lonely as i watch the swan in you pass me by smiling happily as i watch you fly free passing my by, do i wish i could be free? do i wish you could fly back to me? i guess now i know what it feels like when a bird with wings cannot fly free" i sang the words werent ever meant to be heard "woah i guess you do feel bad" "no i just needed to i am happy for him i am i " Yunho walked in i didnt even know he was here "look Little Kimi get over it" "huh i am over it" "good now focus on you hmm what do you really want to do?" i looked at him "i want to sing" "well then sing" "i just did" "ok well you wanna sing a full album?" "huh?" "i can help record it just lemme know ok oh i will even write you a song" "you would do all that for me even though we havent known each other for that long?" "yes no problem" "Yunho you are awesome i wanna sing" "cool so lemme know when" "erm whenever you want" three months passed and Yunho had arranged everything for me to record an album Junsu avoided me like i had the plague hero thought it was funny but yoochun and i still did our chu and message thing.

ch11
i had finished the album and only changmin and yunho had heard it i was kinda fed up with the cd already but changmin wanted a copy so i gave him the only copy there was.
Honestly i missed the time yoochun and i spent cos the only time we spoke was at night through our windows and even then it was about him and his girlfriend Hero somehow got ahold of a copy of my album and insisted i show yoochun i think he kinda thought if i could play in the same ring as yoochun then id have a chance with him seeing as his girlfriend was a singer but i shouldnt have to change just to get with him, i started to feel pretty down and tired alot so i went to the doctors he told me i was sick but not in a normal way it was more like the stress was getting to me and i had to rest and try not to expose myself to as much pain and suffering which is kinda unavoidable for me seeing as i live next door to suffering jokes aside he said that i could get worse if i stress too much my brain will think my heart had stopped and will then stop functioning whci will kill me, i didnt tell anyone i kept it to myself i didnt want to bother them i told my mother and all she said was it was my fault and i will have to deal with it myself.
A new month rolled in i had a date with Junsu finally but only because hero had made him ask so its not a proper date it was more like a friends going out thing i took him to a quiet place so we could talk i had to tell him we were only friends thankfully he agreed so we just went to a theme park as friends i hated theme parks cos i always got crushed by people rushing around "hey kimi you ok?" "huh yeah" "you dont look like it" "i just need to breath" "huh?" "its too cramped" "ah ok we leave then" "thanks" he took my hand and rushed me outside and into a small forest thing it was quiet and pretty finally i caught my breath i thought this was it im dying "Kimi you feel better i was kinda worried" "oh dont be i get panicky in small places" "but it wasnt a small place" "no but it was a crowd" "ah" "hey can i tell you something but only because i might need help when the time comes" "time what time?" "I'm sick Junsu" "huh but you look fine" "yeah on the outside" "KImi?" "its the inside the doctor worried about" "you ok?" "yes well at least i will be if i dont get too stressed" "oh" "see if i get too stressed my brain will convince itself that my heart has stopped and will stop itself killing me the doctor said it was broken heart syndrome kinda like a fariytale thing he said it sounded like" "ah so no more bad things for kimi no more sadness right?" "right but therein lies the problem" "what?" "i live next door to sadness" "as yoochun does he know?" "no and no tell him" "ok but how are you going to be ok?" "i will pretend and convince myself nothing is sad" "right i help" "if you wish" "haha i just thought your gonna die without experiencing love" "and thats funny because?" "sorry" "its ok i think its funny to" Junsu glared at me before taking me home we laughed as we went into my house "ok so thanks for the fun" "no problem goodnight kimi" "night" i closed the door and then skipped into the living room where i fell to the floor in agony my heart hurt i tried to calm my breathing until it stopped.
The morning arrived i had fallen asleep in the living room, there was a paper swan next to my head did yoochun put it there and why didnt he wake me up?
"yo sleepy" i heard Yunho yell from outside "are you getting something to eat now?" he asked i stood up and walked out into the garden where they were all sat eating breakfast "huh?" "we didnt want to wake you cos Junsu wouldnt let us" "oh erm sorry" "its ok what are you eating?" "i dunno but yoochun cooked it" "oh hmm" "yours is here" Yoochun pointed to a plate "thanks" i smiled and walked over sitting down i looked on the plate "a swan?" "i made it for you to cheer you up" "im already happy" "ah well i said id make them for you didnt i?" "yes i love it thanks" i wanted to hug him he was suddenly speaking to me normally again after breakfast hero dragged the others away leaving yoochun and i to talk i was pretty nervous.

ch12
"Junsu told me" "told you what?" "that you werent feeling very well" "oh yeah ive just been a little stressed" "oh and this" he pulled out my CD "you should send this out" "no way that was for friends" "so everyone got a copy except me?" "yes well i didnt want to interupt you and your things" "you never interupt me you should know that by now" "yeah well" i sat and scratched my head confused "you really dont like her do you?" "huh ive never met her and besides its not up to me who you date" "but you are my friend" "yes i know thats what i am to everyone all the time im used to it" "what do you mean?" "nothing nevermind forget i said anything" "kimi are you lying to me?" "no i just said it was nothing erm you want help to clean the dishes?" "sure" i helped him clean them away before going to get changed i heard shouting in the living room so i threw myself down the stairs "whats with the shouting?" "Hero started it" "i was just trying to tell yoochun something but he wount believe me Kimi you need to tell him" Yoochun looked at me i couldnt tell him suddenly i felt a sharp pain in my chest "Kimi? you ok?" "just please stop arguing" "Kimi?" i couldnt breath and i wanted to cry when Junsu ran in "guys please leave" "whats wrong with her?" "nothing just calm down and stop arguing ok" Junsu grabbed me and took me outside and into his car he drove down the street and parked in a spot where it was quiet "Kimi calm down now" "cant breath it hurts" "what ok calm relax its quiet nothing can hurt you i am here shh ok" he looked at me i couldnt breath my heart hurt but he was smiling "Junsu i.. it hurts" "i know just calm down and relax" he kept trying to reassure me it was working little by little until i calmed down "you ok now?" "yes thanks" "no problem i told you not to panic" "i know but hero and yoochun were arguing and then hero told me to tell yoochun how i feel about him and i got scared and and..." i began to panic again until junsu hit me on the head "calm down" "hehe sorry" "its ok jsut stop" "ok" we sat in his car for ages until he took me back home Yoochun was sat waiting for me "you gonna be ok?" "yes" "what are you gonna tell him?" "that i panicked and needed to breath" "ok well he will find out what really is the problem eventually" "well not if you dont tell him feel free to let the others know but not yoochun i dont want him to feel sorry for me" "ok" i bowed then walked towards yoochun "so whats going on?" "nothing i just had a panic attack" "right so are you going to tell me the truth?" "about what?" "what hero was talking about" "not here" "inside then?" "sure" we went inside i looked back at junsu i was pretty worried but i closed the door behind me "kimi are you really ok?" "yes im ok i just need to tell you the truth right and you will stop asking me if i am ok?" "yes" "well the truth is.." Yoochuns cell phone rang so i let him answer it it was kinda lucky cos it just meant i had a little more time to prepare myself for his laughter or him not wanting anything to do with me ever again he walked back in "sorry it was nothing important" he sat down and smiled "so you were saying?" "i was saying the truth is yes erm the truth is" "ok why are you looking so nervous you have never had trouble telling me anything before" "thats the point" "what is" "before" "huh erm" i sat and looked at his swan he made me "ah ok i get it go to your window" he smiled before leaving i ran to my window thinking of what he was upto when i saw him sitting there "so we always talk like this serious stuff right?" he wrote on paper this was out thing and it was true we always told each other important stuff like this i wrote back "yes" "now you can tell me" "yes" "ok" "i love you" i wrote and placed it on my window so i couldnt see his reaction to when i told him i moved away from the window i didnt want to see what he put if he put anything i wanted him to say he was ok with it i wanted him to say anything at this point but he didnt we didnt speak to each other for awhile and if he wanted to say anything to me he would have hero or changmin tell me and in return they relayed what i had to say i guess it was kinda childish but it was him i wouldve been happy to just talk to him.
Three months passed and it was another tour i couldve gone with them but i chose not to which worried Junsu and Yunho because they new what was going on with me but i told them id call them or theyd call me everynight and day to check on me.

ch13
it felt like i was alone again until Junsu emailed me they were a week into the tour and i had to go with them he wouldnt let me be on my own so i flew out to meet him which shocked hero that a flew by myself without any of them being there i made them not to tell yoochun i was here cos he had his girlfriend with him and i didnt want to disturb them.
"so kimi you have a plan?" "for what?" "for winning" "winning what?" "yoochun?" "you know he is a guy right and not a trophy?" "i know but he doesnt look the smae as when he is with you" "huh?" "nothing nothing" "right and no i dont got a plan for him if he wants to be with her i am happy for him" "right so then you can maybe start dating someone too" "yes if im wanted by anyone although to be fair i still love him" "and it will take ages for it to go away i know" "hey Hero whats with the questions?" "nothing just trying to cheer you up" "look i am fine i am happy see" i placed a fake smile on my lips pretending everything was ok Hero and the others didnt tell Yoochun i was there even though hero was trying to get yoochun to split with his girl but i kept foiling his plans seriously hero is like a child it was getting closer to the final night of the tour and suddenly i got this idea in my head about yoochun i went to dinner with hero and Changmin "so kimi i see you have a plan" "huh how the?" "cos you have the same look on your face as i did when i thought up a plan" "erm changmin is he always like this?" "yes pretty much" "awesome so" "so what?" "i had this thought" "ah see i told you" "Changmin do me a favour" "sure" "hit hero on the head" "sure" "ouch Changmin" "i said id do anything for my lil kimi" "thankies Changmin-kun" "not a problem so the thought?" "ah right yeah erm" "erm?" "its more like i had a dream then an idea" "dream?" "yeah i was standing in the crowd at your final live of this tour i was wearing the white bunny sweater Yoochun baought me and you guys were singing Bolero and then i held up this peice of paper with the words i love you on yoochun sees it then stops singing the light shone on me the crowd parted leaving a huge gap Yoochun walks down the stage and runs towards me and takes out a piece of paper and it says i love you too on it and like i said it was a dream it wouldnt ever happen like that in real life cos he doesnt love me he loves her" "no he doesnt" "huh Changmin shh" "he told me he doesnt love her he just likes her" "ah so you think theres a chance for him and kimi?" "possibly" "ok you know something" "no i dont" "yes you do look at your face" "nothing" "tell us" "no cos its jsut a feeling" "tell us" "fine but dont get your hopes up kimi" "like i would" "yes you would but i have a feeling there is more to him than we all think i mean there might be more to his feelings towards kimi than we think" "awesome" "Hero its just a feeling nothing more" "whats a feeling?" Yunho walked in and sat down closely followed by Junsu "ah we were talking about yoochun and kimi" "ah i think he would be better off with kimi" "Junsu dont say that you will curse him and her" "i dont care" "you should" "why?" "hey so kimi had this little dream and i got an idea" "ooh Hero with an idea now thats scary" yunho laughed i laughed too but thats cos i was getting nervous "so kimi this dream?" "ah let hero tell you i just gotta go" "where?" "do i have to tell you?" "ah right ok i got ya" i left them alone cos i didnt want to hear them say how stupid the dream was when i came back Junsu was smiling "erm?" "we got hero's idea too" "oh great well are you gonna let me in on it?" "nope ah Yoochun here" "erm hide" "where?" "under the table quick" i ducked under the table luckily there was a table cover that reached the floor i sat near Hero and listened to them talking yoochun sounded sad and sick "so hows kimi?" "havent you asked her yourself?" "im afraid too" "why?" "because she told me something important and i didnt answer her" "its ok shes ok by the way" "good i hate leaving her alone when we go on these things" "you know you care for her alot considering shes just a friend" "so what shes important to me" "ah right and not to us?" "i didnt say that" "anyways shouldnt you talk to her she thinks you hate her after what she said to you" "huh no i cant i dont deserve to speak to her again" "you know she is worried about you" "why after the way i treated her" "see thats why she is perfect for you" "ah well im with the other girl now" "ah speaking of her how is she?" "she's well she's clingy and all she talks about is the band this the band that" "so why put up with it?" "because she is cute" "and nothing else?" "if i didnt want to be on my own again id get it over with" "right so Kimi" "yeah she's well i.."

ch14
"yey there he is my yoochun" "great" he whispered as his girl runs in and sits on his lap "how are you boys?" "great thanks" Hero sighed i pinched him "eh ouch erm everything is great" "right so what were you boys talking about?" "Kimi" "Changmin shh" "that girl Yoochun keeps calling out in his sleep ooh she is annoying" "but you have never met her" "i dont need to she sounds annoying besides she cant have my chun" "but shes way better than you" Hero and Changmin mumble "what?" "nothing i just said wow you are funny" nice lie hero at this point i wanted to get up and hit her she was so wrong for him but i stayed quiet as they all spoke about me his girlfriend calling me all the names under the sun finally when she left i heard yoochun sigh "yeah yoochun she is perfect" "dont try be funny you think if i had someone to go back to i wouldnt end it with her?" "you do have someone" "what?" "i said baka you have someone" changming stopped hero before he went too far "erm hero chill man" "sorry but that girl is ugly both her and her personality is yucky" "we know but its up to yoochun not us so sit down" Junsu got up and walked out "Kimi eserve more than this" Yunho replied and followed Junsu "whats kimi got to do with this?" "nothing shes just awesome" "kimi is pretty inside and out" hero mumbled "hey truthfully" "what?" "right ok so question time ok?" "sure" "you gotta answer with truth" "ok" Hero,Changmin and yoochun sat there i was nervous under the table i grabbed hero's leg "ok so changmin first" "yup" "if you were stuck in a room with kimi and there was an open window you could only reach if you stood on something what would you do?" "simple id tell kimi to stand on me and get out first" "right hero's next" "if there was only one piece of cake left and you wanted it really badly but kimi wanted it to but she kept telling you to take it what would you do?" Hero looked at his feet i was sat glaring at him "id tell her she needed it and i would do without it but then if she kept denieing it id just feed it to her" hero laughed i poked him but i wanted to laugh "ok yoochun if you could only say something to kimi before she left forever what would it be?" hero asked knowing it was a pretty hard question "simple id tell her i love her" i didnt hear what he said cos i was too busy covering my ears i didnt want to hear him say something i didnt want to hear "hey that was quick did you even think about it..wait did you just say?" "yes i did" "so why havent you told her?" "because im here and she isnt" "well tell her when you get back then" "she isnt speaking to me" "and thats a reason to not tell her write it then you know in the window message thing you guys do" "chu i miss her" "whats with the chu?" "oh its something she and i say to each other i miss saying it to her" "aww cute" "funny well we better pay for this stuff then" "yes i will this time" "what hero hasnt paid for anything ever" "we know lets go before he chages his mind" changmin giggled i waited until he and yoochun had left "its safe now" "phew thanks and aww you'd feed me cake" "funny i had to say something cos its cake if that ever happend you'd have to fight me for it" "yes and id win" "not with cake you wont co i love cake" "sure sure" hero checked to see if yoochun had gone before taking me back to my hotel i still didnt know what yoochun had said his last words to me were and hero wouldnt tell me "so it near the final live?" "yep and are you gonna wear the sweater he baought you?" "yes if my dream came true it be the greatest moment in my life ever" "aww you not had many of those moments then?" "nope well except when i found my fathers piano" "ah yeah its pretty" "yep i can play it a little better now too" "good well goodnight" "night" hero left and i flew onto the bed i stayed in the room until the night of the final live i told Hero to come get me before the live started and to not tell yoochun i was going.

ch15
"kimi you ready?" "yep" "ok well i got someone to walk with you to the live you have all the passes and stuff" "awesome" hero left me with a friend of his who walked with me to the live we went inside and waited with the rest of the fans i secretly had the piece of paper in my pocket that said i love you just incase the countdown started and the fans screamed i just stood there with my hood up the band came onstage hero and changmin spotted me right away i shook my head i watched as they performed each song then it got to bolero my favourite song and the part in my dream where yoochun finally tells me but when it got to the end of the song i was kinda sad Changmin whispered to yoochun during the song he looked at the big screen behind them there was our picture "what?" "you" i stared at the screen what was happening "erm sorry about this there seems to be a fault with the screen" Yunho smiled as he said the words the fans all stared but the screamed yoochun looked at the floor when hero walked upto him and put his arm around him "yoochun are you ok?" he whispered yoochun lifted up his head he was crying "no im not ok sorry everyone i just feel a little down" the fans screamed back that it was ok then the light was shone into the crowd i dunno where cos i was looking at the floor after seeing yoochun in tears it made me cry "you the one in the bunny sweater" "huh?" i looked up "could you take off your hood please?" Hero was talking to me the crowd had moved away from me i thought i was sick or something i took off my hood and looked forward "Kimi?" "i nodded as changming yelled out my name yoochun looked at me then dropped his mic before running and jumping down from the stage i looked at the floor "kimi look" i shook my head "look up baka" i didnt then all i heard was "chu!" i looked up yoochun was stood infront of me "chu?" i sniffled then i watched hi as he placed his hands into his shirt and pulled out a piece of paper then unfolded it he smiled at me as i read it "i love you too" the paper was shaking in his hands "yoochun?" "sorry i took too long" i looked at him suddenly i felt a sharp pain it was my heart again i couldnt breath yoochun looked worried as he grabbed me i dug my fingers into his arm as he held me "yoochun kiss her now" Junsu yelled "she's" "just kiss her" "i cant" "it will save her just kiss her now" hero and changmin joined in "kiss her kiss her" the crowd chanted "she's not breathing right" "just kiss her if you want to save her kiss her" Junsu and Yunho ran down and crowded around "kiss her now" Yunho mumbled as he hit yoochun suddenly yoochun leant in and kissed me he placed a hand on my cheek i place my arms around his shoulders "finally" Yunho sighed.
After the live yoochun stayed with me to make sure i was ok "so what was wrong with you?" "remember when i told you i was sick?" "yes" "well thats is why i was suffering from broken heart syndrome" "huh?" "to put it simply all of the bad stuff took its toll on my heart and made me sick but im getting better" "good cos we have alot to talk about" eventually i fell asleep.
i woke up on the floor Yunho and Changmin stood above me "erm time to get up now" "yeah i kinda guessed that but why are you standing around me?" "we thought you had gone" "no way i just mustve fell out of bed wheres yoochun?" "breakfast he told us to look after you" "hmm ok erm sorry i look pretty bad when ive just first woken up" "no you dont you should see hero first thing now thats bad" yunho laughed "hero speaking of him where is he?" "bathroom" "good imma gonna have to speak to him" "ooh he going to get yelled at" "yes" Hero walked out of the bathroom "she awake now?" "erm im stadning right next to you by the way why did you do that at the live?" "your dream remember" "yes but you didnt have to make him cry" "yoochun cries alot" "so dont do it again or else...ouch" the pain again i couldnt breath again i grabbed my chest hero and changmin panicked "what the someone do something" "i dunno what to do" "erm try calm her down" "yunho i cant breath" "i know just calm down everything is good" "it hurts" suddenly i fell to the floor gasping for air all i saw was hero and changmin run out of the room "yunho i dont want to die not now" "you wont just calm down erm think of your fave things" "it hurts" "i know i know erm shh erm what do i do?" "ou...ouch Chu?" "yes chu good chu keep going chu"

ch16
"chu" *sniffle* i couldnt breath right and yunho kept saying chu it was cute but it want working "where is yoochun?" the door opened in walked junsu "what the oh no is she?" "i dunno she hasnt moved for awhile i think she is ok" "you havent checked?" "im too scared to i tried everything to calm her down but not even the chu worked" "great ok ok erm i know get some water see if she feels that" "nope not working ok where is yoochun?" "i dunno he said he was getting breakfast" "ok erm help me put her on the bed" "ok what now?" "erm you go find yoochun quick i will try everything to get her back" "ok ok but careful" "sure" Junsu panicked and and held me in his arms trying to get me to respond to him "ok kimi remember yoochun and his chu" "whats going on kimi?" "she just sorta panicked and we tried everything but nothing" "let go get out please" "yoochun you need to be calm or else" "i know but she is mine" "yo fool listen to me" "what?" "she cant suffer any more sadness or pain she needs to get better she needs love and happiness" "i know" "ok well i hope" "just please leave" Junsu left closing the door behind him yoochun stood over my body looking down "believe me chu!" he whispered before leaning over my placing a kiss on my lips "chu!" he whispered i grabbed his arm "chu" i smiled "your back good" "where did i go?" "you left us here for awhile" "i did?" "yes" "sorry i guess i am too much trouble for you" "no never im just glad we still have our chu" "haha yeah erm im kinda hungry" "yeah so you are erm i bought us some" "awesome the others too?" "yes others too" "where are the guys?" "outside" "why?" "i will get them" "okies" i sat up and watched as they all walk in "shes back?" "yes" "great wow i was kinda worried there" "yeah me too you scare us too much kimi" "sorry tell you what when we get back i will cook lots of kimi special" "yes" Junsu yelled "ok calm down"
when we got back home i made the kimi special three months had passed since the live and i was getting better i still had the attacks but they were getting lesser and lesser and chu worked all the time yoochun and i still hadnt gone on our first date yet hero and changmin were sorting him out about that.
"when are you making it officail with kimi?" "what do you mean?" "you havent taken her on a date yet" "im trying to sort something out" "ooh like what? "surprise her" "awesome"
"hey kimi lets hear how good you have gotten on the piano" "sure erm i kinda only been playing this song" "oh ok well give it your best shot" i sat next to yunho and hero at the paino and smiled before playing the song without any mistakes "wow you got pretty good" "yup i love this song and ive finally managed to play my fathers favourite song now too" "awesome" "you wanna hear it?" "yes" i played the song i was nervouse and stopped halfway through to catch my breath yunho panicked "im ok i just needed to catch my breath geeze you guys are jumpy" "well after what we saw its kinda scary" "you think so?" "know so" "sorry for making you guys worry" i looked down "hey a swan" "huh yoochun again?" "theres a note" "ooh read it" "my pretty bird fly free fly to me follow the swans become to me my gentle swan~yoochun~ chu!" i looked at yunho "aww yoochun got all romantic go to him" "uh huh erm" "dont worry be calm its a good thing remember that go" hero smiled opening the door there were origami swans lined up as a trail to follow "erm do i look ok?" "you look perfect like the beautiful swan you are now go" Hero smiled i bowed to him before following the swans until i found myself in a candlelit garden hidden by trees and roses the trail ended infront of a swan floating around in a bowl of water i walked up to it and watched as it spun around.

ch17
"pretty" "now you can fly free" i turned round yoochun was standing holding onto a paper swan he was wearing a white suit and a silver and white mask "yoochun?" "come to me" he was trying to be cute im guessing so i walked to him "fly" he took me by the hand and spun me around so my back was to him he lowered his head so it rested on my shoulder "i promised i would teach you how to make swans give me your hands" i placed my hands in his as he guided them into making a swan "i did it" "yes you did and such a pretty one too" "yoochun thank you" *sniffle* i began to cry i was happy an he was sexy in the outfit he was wearing "you ok?" "yes im just happy" "im glad to see you happy" "im only happy cos im with you" "i know come on sit with me" "sure" i followed as he walked over to a white silk blanket on the ground "for my swan" "aww yoochun your so cute" "yep but only for you" he sat down pulling me onto his lap and wrapping his arms around my waist "erm so why the mask?" "cos im your swan prince" "chu?" "yes chu" i turned round to face him "so are you sure you want me?" "what kind of question is that?" "a simple one" "then yes i am sure" i began to cry again but i placed my hands over my face "dont hide" "i have to" "why?" "cos im crying again" "so please dont hide from me" he pulled my hands away from my face my tears falling onto his skin "shh dont cry" "sorry" "i know what will make you feel better" "huh?" he gently placed a kiss onto my neck i gasped it felt heavenly