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Marionette {yaoi story}

Written by: Heajoong Shim.

Starring: Jaejoong & Changmin
Yaoi!

Ch1
“so when is the new girl starting?” Changmin asked as he stood in front of the window stretching his arms wide, Jaejoong just shrugged and sat glaring at his phone “she starts today honestly I don’t know why we had to hire a new one I didn’t see anything wrong with the previous girl” Yunho walked in holding his new magazine “eh what?” “the girl do you even know her name?” “not me besides I don’t plan on even knowing her” “that not very nice” a voice had replied from behind the boys, “eh!!” Junsu turned round to see a white haired girl staring at him “guys I think that’s her” “who?” “ok boys save you all from idiocy how about I just introduce myself?” she smiled as she walked towards the boys who suddenly started to pay attention to her
“my name if you can grasp is Hea Yung” “grace?” “huh?” “you I mean your name means grace its Korean right?” Jaejoong replied hiding behind his book Hea smiled and giggled  “yes I guess it does well business then I made you all a schedule please keep this with you ok?” Hea handed them all the pieces of paper before bowing and sat on the window seat leaving the boys staring at her “um” “ok you are Junsu you like to play soccer, kind of quiet but inpatient” Hea smiled as he stood staring Yoochun looked and sighed before getting up “you mr ecliptic you like to over shadow everyone but when over shadowed you try steal the light, you also like to cook even though you hate to admit it, also you yourself are the studier and like to learn um did I miss out anything?” Hea looked at him before he walked out throwing the paper to the floor “um guess you upset him” Changmin smiled as he sat next to her and placed his hand on her head “what about me what do you think you know of me?” Hea looked and smiled “you are the shy guy pretending to be all cute and sweet but really you have a dark side and a secret but that secret isn’t such a bad thing oh and I have to tell you tomorrow when you wake up you will find a spot on your forehead” Hea smiled before moving his hand from her head leaving him gasping, Hea stood up and looked at Yunho before he nodded “right and now it my turn?” “if you wish” “sure lets have some fun” “right well you hmm how to say” Hea walked around him before smiling “you have gained a little weight but only three pounds so its easily rid of, also in a few seconds your phone will ring it will be a girl asking you to meet her but you cannot or you will lose your wallet” “huh?” “wait for it three two one” Yunho’s phone rang and he answered “eh how the hell?” “I don’t know I just know” “right well im gonna get something to eat leave you guys later” Yunho waved as he ran out of the room leaving Jaejoong and Changmin sitting there.
“you forgot someone” “huh?” “you forgot me” Jaejoong looked up over his book then looked right at Hea “ah well you are a little harder to read than the others but I will give it a shot” “sure” “hmm you like to read and study a lot, learning a new language to you is exciting, you like to be alone a lot but also are afraid of loneliness did I get it ok?” “not even close” he mumbled as he went back to reading his book “well guys I will leave you to read through the schedule I have to go prepare your flight for tomorrow” “good bye” Hea left the room and walked past Yoochun who was leant against the wall in the hallway glaring at the floor
“hey you” “huh did I say something to upset you  ’cos if I did I am sorry” “follow me I want to talk to you” “but I have to” “I don’t care” Hea followed Yoochun to the car park “get in the car” “you gonna kill me?” “no just get in” Hea got into the car then Yoochun drove

Ch2
Yunho was sat reading the text on his phone “hey is it me or have you put on a little weight?” he read the words then stood to his feet and yawned “hey” “what?” “wanna play soccer with me?” “no way” “it help you shed those pounds” “very funny fine lets go” Yunho and Junsu played soccer passing the ball to each other “hey is it me or does she seem a little off to you?” “dunno maybe we should give her a chance” “why?” “I dunno I just get the feeling she is important” “huh ok then well I don’t care” “course you don’t all you care for is soccer” “not true I care for you guys” “aww” “no I mean as a family you guys are my brothers” “aww little Junsu getting all girly” “hey knock it off”
Jaejoong hid behind the book reading the same page over and over when Changmin sat on the bed “hey” “what?” “she seems a little off” “I didn’t notice” “no you always have your face hid behind a book” “so?” “nothing” Changmin smiled before looking at the window “hey do you see that?” Jaejoong looked see what?” “that there” Changmin pointed “I don’t see anything” “look closer see?” “like I said” “look would you” “tch fine” Jaejoong put down the book and walked over to the window “where?” “there” Changmin grabbed his hands and pushed him to the bed before placing his hands on Jaejoong’s chest pulling up his t-shirt “what are you doing?” “don’t act like you don’t know” “Changmin get off me!” Changmin gently kissed Jaejoong on his neck as he caressed his chest with his slender fingers  “I said get off me!” Jaejoong pushed Changmin over and ran out of the room running past the manager and into the car park and got into his car driving to a secluded spot “what’s going on?” “with?” “Jaejoong he just ran past me” “I don’t know but  im sure he will be back” “he better or else” Changmin stood smiling as the manager yelled.
“so Hea why you say those things about me?” Yoochun looked at her as he pulled to a stop “because it’s true” “how would you know when you just met me?” Hea looked at him “I don’t know are you not that person?” she looked at him confused as he glared “you know I didn’t know you could be this bitchy” “huh but you don’t know me either” “let me give it a shot then” “fine” Hea looked at him “hmm you are shy but get on with your work you live to work, you never had a boyfriend you think they are a waste of time so why bother but you are afraid of being alone, you find it hard to trust so you hide, you have blue eyes but one has a scar on it from when you had an accident from childhood that has now made you scared of being close to anyone even those you care about but you have a special someone you want to get close to but are afraid he will reject you” Yoochun spoke his words hit Hea hard “ok let me out of this car now” “why?” “I want out right now” “but we are in the middle of nowhere” “so let me out please you are suffocating me I want out please” “tch fine there” Hea got out and slammed the door and began to walk back she didn’t even know the way Yoochun drove along side her and opened the window “look I shouldn’t have said anything” “I don’t care what you think” “but you do” “no I don’t” “I can see it” “look away” “why?” “I want you to” “truthfully we met once before” “I don’t think so” “ok at the club” “what club?” “when we were ten I followed you everywhere” “huh?” “the club the dance club I followed you everywhere but then you stopped coming” “I never went to any club now leave me alone” “fine” Yoochun drove away leaving Hea walking alone on the road looking at the floor
“tch what am I doing?” he stopped and got out “come on I take you home” “I cant not with you” “I promise I wont talk to you” “realsies?” “yes realsies” “tch fine” Hea got into the car and he drove her home.

Ch3
Jaejoong sat in his car listening to music suddenly the song flower lady played he quickly turned off the CD “tch what the hell did he do”  he asked himself questions trying to figure out his own feelings he liked that Changmin made the move it wasn’t the first time he had done this to him in fact every chance that he and Changmin were alone it always happened but Jaejoong liked it he was in love with Changmin but he couldn’t let him know “stupid” he yelled kicking his dashboard breaking the vent “crap”
“hey so is he back yet?” “nope” “where is he?” “like I said I don’t know” Changmin sat watching the sky when Yunho and Junsu walked in “hey” “yeah hey” “woah what went down in here the mood got all yucky” “yeah Jaejoong ran off and Yoochun has gone too” “right” “ok what part of stay in the room do you not find simple?” “tch we are bored” “so read or something im gonna go find those two oh and where is Hea Yung?” “she went to arrange our flights” “ah a good girl that one” “sure she is”
“hey does anyone else notice she went right after Yoochun did?” “nah she had to its her job” “right well I am going out” “you are not allowed” “like I care im going to find Jaejoong” “why not just call him?” “tried that three times no answer” “alright well I call Hea see if she can get through to him” “ok” Yunho called Hea’s phone “hello?” “hey have you seen Jaejoong?” “nope” “well our manager going mad so we need him back could  you try him?” “sure whats his number” “hey we are here” “huh who is that wait is that Yoochun?” “yeah he drove me home” “oh is there something going on with you two?” “no he just drove me home it is getting late” “sure” “well I call Jaejoong” “good”
Hea ended the call and looked at Yoochun “well thank you for driving me home” “no problem” Hea go out of the car and went inside leaving Yoochun to drive away,
Hea called the number Yunho gave her “hey Jaejoong?” “what?” “um sorry if I disturbed you but you have to get back to the hotel” “I don’t have to do anything you tell me” “its not me its your manager he is going insane and if he thinks I messed up im gonna lose this job and I love my job please just go” “no” “ok what is wrong with you?” “nothing” “Jae?” “don’t call me that” “sorry” “no its ok I am sorry I just need some time alone” “again with the alone” “huh?” “you don’t have to be alone you know look I know you have just met me but if you ever need to talk just know I am here for you ok?” “huh?” “I mean it” “are you alone now?” “me?” “yes?” “yeah im alone why?” “give me your address” “um sure” “ok I will come to you ok?” “um sure” Jaejoong ended the call Hea looked around her apartment was a little messy so she quickly cleaned it, suddenly a knock sounded at her apartment door “um?” “it’s me” “oh ok um please wait a moment” “sure” Hea quickly ran to the door and opened it Jaejoong stood glaring “um can I?” “what?” “come inside?” “ah right yeah sure welcome” she opened the door wider to let him inside “woah this place is huge do you live here alone?” “well” “ah boyfriend I forget” “no not that I just” Hea smiled as she closed the door and stood glaring at him “you have a boyfriend?” “no” “ah I understand” “no its not that I mean I like guys I just you know haven’t found the right one yet” “yet?” “yet”  he smiled at her “ah you want anything to drink?” “sure” “um follow me the kitchen is at the back of the house” “oh ok” Hea led Jaejoong to the kitchen as they passed the rooms and garden “um why is there a garden in the centre of your home?” “ah I designed this place” “I like it” “it took a lot of hard work” “you worked all your life?” “no just I worked really hard” “ah ok well I think it paid off” “kinda” Hea grabbed two bottles of grape juice and handed one to him “grape juice?” “yes sorry it is all I have right now” “no it ok I like grape its my favourite” “really?” “yep” he smiled as he took a sip from the bottle and looked around “so you live here alone?” “yes” “why?” Hea looked at him “just the way I like it” “right me too”
Suddenly Jaejoong felt happy for a moment “hey Hea could we be friends?” “huh why you need to ask?” “I just like to” “ok then Mr polite then I be your friend” Hea smiled.

Ch4
“ok is he back yet?” “not yet but he did email to say he be here in the morning” “ok good well you boys get some sleep you have a long flight in the morning” “yes sir”
“where are we going again?” “geeze Junsu didn’t you read the schedule?” “nope” “you should” Yoochun walked in holding his phone “what’s wrong with you?” “nothing I was just doing some stuff” “right well im going to sleep” the boys fall asleep Yoochun stayed awake all night searching his phone “ah there she is” he smiled as he emailed Hea the club picture
“hey Hea your phone is beeping” “ah right um I know it rude of me to ask but could you open the mail?” “how you know its mail?” “I have a different tone for each” “ah” Jaejoong opened Hea’s phone and opened the mail “hey it’s a picture” “another one?” “what do you mean another one?” “oh um I keep getting sent pictures by someone and its freaking me out a little” “right well just ignore them” “I do so wonder what this one is from?” Jaejoong handed her the phone “eh!” “what?” “it’s nothing” “right and by the look on your face it looks like you had just seen a ghost” “I did” “huh?” “a ghost from my past” “ah” “it’s me I  mean the club I went to when I was a kid” “let me see” “im the one in the blue” “aww cutie” “shut up” “who is the guy tugging at your hair?” “that Yoochun” “Yoochun?” “yep” “as in our Yoochun?” “yes” “aww so getting this job was easy for you?” “no I had totally forgot about him when I left the club” “left?” “yeah I cant talk about it” “its ok” Jaejoong looked at her “hey I just noticed your eye has a scar on it” “I know” “is that why you like to be alone?” “um could we just go sleep its late and you have early flight” “right sure”

Hea lay in her bed she remembered Yoochun but had to forget him when she left  “Hea?” she heard Jaejoong calling her but she didn’t answer “Hea? Are you sleeping?” “no” “can I come in?” “just a second” she quickly pulled the covers over her “fine come in” “I didn’t mean to disturb you” “no its ok I wasn’t sleeping anyway” “are you ok?” “yeah but what is up with you?” “I couldn’t sleep” “oh well join the club” Hea laughed “hey you can sit you know” “but I don’t want to disturb you” “you arent” “ok” Jaejoong sat on the edge of the bed “wow hard bed” “yeah its comfy” “yeah” he stared at his hands “what’s wrong?” “nothing important” “hey no say that you can be important to someone you know” “I don’t think so” “why?” “nothing” “hey you wanna go for a walk?” “at this time?” “why not?” “sounds fun” “good lets go” Hea jumped out of the bed and grabbed his hands “come on I know a place you will love” “ah but Hea” “what?” “your shirt is unbuttoned” “ah eh oh hehehe” Hea buttoned her shirt and smiled “well im ready to give you a shot at this job” Jaejoong smiled “very funny” “well if those arent stopping you from getting a guy then what is?” “nothing like I said I havent found the right one yet” “ok” Hea took Jaejoong to a small forested area with a small lake “here” “wow where are we?” “secret” “right so how did you find this place?” “its mine” “this whole thing?” “yes” “um?” “look fine I tell you my mother and father were rich but they wanted me to have a normal life so they sent me to public school and I wanted to go the dance club so they sent me that’s where I met Yoochun we became friends right away it was sweet I never had friends before so I just didn’t know how to act so I acted like I didn’t notice him when we were learning new routine for the play I had to move away to another home, so I forgot him well I didn’t I remembered him I just had to forget it was better that way” Jaejoong looked at her “why?” “I had to just had too then when I was in high school I came home one day to find my father sat at the kitchen table holding a knife I dropped my bag and he chased me through the house I tripped and fell hitting my eye on the edge of  the stairs I passed out I thought I was gonna die but I didn’t I woke up in hospital with Yoochun in the next bed” “what happened to him?” “I was told if it wasn’t for Yoochun I would have been dead they his parents told me he had ran after me after he saw me and found me on the floor my father sat on top of me about to push the knife into my chest so he ran at him and pushed him away and out of the window Yoochun killed my father, my father killed my mother and was about to kill me but Yoochun saved me after that I just had to forget everything his parents didn’t want Yoochun to remember, because whilst he carried me out of the house my father had caught him and I couldn’t look at him after that” Hea sat on a rock looking at the sky Jaejoong stood glaring at her “wow I didn’t know” “that’s just it no one did and im afraid if Yoochun finds out he suffer he only knows me from the dance club nothing after that” “oh”
Jaejoong smiled “so um what if the right guy was him?” “I already considered that and I cant” “why?” “because it cant ok” “fine”

Ch5
Hea and Jaejoong walked to the hotel “alright boys?” “huh hey how she get in here I isn’t dressed”  “calm down its not like you have anything to show” Jaejoong smiled as Junsu hid his chest “ok relax if it makes you all feel better I will turn around whilst you all act like children” Hea smiled as she turned around suddenly she felt a hand on her shoulder and then a warmth close to her body “well I don’t mind if she sees what I got” Yunho whispered “get the hell off her before I break every bone in your arm!” Yoochun ran at Yunho pushing him away and wrapping his arms around Hea “woah calm down I was only joking” “not funny” Hea pulled away and slapped Yoochun “ouch” “don’t ever touch me again do you understand?” “fine I was only trying to” “I don’t need you to protect me I am not a child anymore” “huh?” “just hurry get ready I will meet you in the lobby” Hea stormed out of the room and ran down the staircase stopping to sit and catch her breath when she heard a voice “what the hell?” “stay away from me” “for some reason I cant” “you have to” “why?” “I cant tell you” Hea hid her head in her arms Yoochun looked at her and sighed then sat next to her and whispered “you know I remember when I found you on the floor that day” “huh?” Hea looked at him “I couldn’t forget I knew from then it was my job to protect you no matter what even when you are far from me I wanted to protect you” “but they told me you had forgotten” “I tried but I couldn’t so I pretended to” “but Yoochun you got hurt because of me” “I don’t care what he did was wrong” “Hey guys we gotta go” “right well now you forgive me can we start again?” “forgive you what?” Yoochun grabbed her arm and ran her down the stairs and into the lobby where they met up with he others “we all accounted for?” “let me check” Hea counted them “yep all here” “good now lets go before we are late you know how much I hate being late now lets go now!”
The manager and the boys made their way to the car waiting outside Hea stood and watched them leave “hey Hea I send the car back for you ok? You are coming with us right?” “yes” “good well see you at the check in” the manager smiled as the car drove away leaving Hea stood holding her notebook and bag “hey never mind them get in we will go” “Yoochun didn’t you just get into the car?” “yeah but I went out the other side” “right like normal then?” Hea giggled as Yoochun stood scratching his head “well?” “ah right I was just” “come on” Hea followed Yoochun to his car and got inside closing the door and opening the window Yoochun took a deep breath and sat in the driver seat before smiling and driving Hea stared out of the window the whole time when suddenly she saw the airport sign pass and leave her sight “um we just pass the airport” “I know” “but?” “I want to show you something before we leave” “we going to be late and your manager doesn’t like to be late” “who cares we just take a later flight and catch up to them later no big deal” “no big deal huh well I suppose not for you mr rich and famous right but for me this job is my life I need this or I don’t know…” “you wont know what to do” “huh?” “look I know you so I know this isn’t what you really live for just shut up and look” he pointed at a building Hea looked there were children dancing and laughing “this is why I brought you here” “huh?” “they were going to pull down the building but I wouldn’t let them so I bought it for you when I had the chance to” Hea looked at Yoochun “but?” “come on follow me that isn’t all” “why?”
He got out of the car and pulled Hea with him as he walked her inside the building “look” he pointed to a wall full of photo’s Hea walked towards the wall and looked “that’s….” “us see im stood behind you” Yoochun smiled “where did all these come from?” “I found them in storeroom and asked my mother to help me track more down so that if you did ever come back here you will remember your reason for living” “I know my reason for living and this isn’t it” Hea turned to face him “lets go we have to leave” “but you haven’t told me your reason for living” “I don’t care lets go now!”

Ch6
“hey where is Yoochun?” “ah he um turned into the seat you are sitting on” “funny Junsu say something more realistic” “he went out the other door before we left” “what?” “something about driving himself” “ok he better get here soon” “I think he will because Hea is with him and she is scary” “I know she’s the best out of the people who applied for this job” “yeah that’s it nothing to do with her being very cute right?” “Junsu I am five times that girls age I have zero chance of anything with her besides she made it clear she doesn’t want a boy” “wonder why?” “maybe she’s into women” “Changmin?” “what I don’t know it was just a thought” “hehe maybe she is maybe she isn’t we will never know” “I will when I get her alone” “Yunho I think if you tried Yoochun kill you” “funny but wonder why he got like that over her its not like he knows her” “I dunno seems like there is something between them but who cares I just want this tour to end so I can go to sleep” “Changmin you sleep enough” “ok enough guys hurry get to check in” “yes sir” the boys stumble out of the car and hurry into the check in before being escorted to a private room.

“um I have to go make a call” “hurry then” Jaejoong left the room  “wonder what’s up with him?” “probably forgot his book” “right he studies a lot” “so it will be helpful in the end” “eh Changmin?” “nothing I gotta go to the bathroom” Changmin walked out of the room to find Jaejoong “why is he I thought he was making a call” he smiled before following Jaejoong into the bathroom locking the door behind him and slamming Jaejoong to the wall “what the?” “you know I want you” “get off” Changmin lowered his hands into the top of Jaejoong’s trousers gently tugging as he pressed his body against his “I said get off” but Changmin carried on kissing him on the neck and shoulder Jaejoong closed his eyes he didn’t know what he wanted all he knew was the feeling of ecstasy Changmin was making him feel but more then anything he was feeling wanted even if it was by another guy all Jaejoong wanted was someone to want him,
Changmin unzipped Jaejoong’s trousers and took hold of his firm member “ooh so you do want me to do this?” he smiled as he gently caressed him “no get off me” Jaejoong panted but nothing happened “ah alright” Changmin smiled as he loosened his grip of Jaejoong but instead turned him towards the wall and stood behind him “what?” “like I said I want you” “no stop it!” but Changmin pulled him closer and began to gently tug at Jaejoong’s hard member getting faster “I… said.. Stop!” Jaejoong panted trying to catch his breath as Changmin moved faster  “get off stop it” but Jaejoong was too late Changmin had finished and stood licking his fingers as Jaejoong stood fastening his trousers “looks like someone kept that in for too long” Changmin smiled before leaving going back into the private room Jaejoong washed his hands and face then sorted his hair before leaving the bathroom, “Hea?” “Jaejoong where are the others?” “over in the private room” “sup bro?” “nothing” “alright relax” “hey Yoochun could you go check us in then leave me to talk to him for a second?” “yeah sure” Yoochun left them alone Hea stood staring at Jaejoong “something’s wrong” “no” “alright then shall we catch up?” Hea and Jaejoong walked to the others and waited for the plane.
A few hours passed Jaejoong stayed near Hea Yung so Changmin couldn’t do anything “alright the plane is here lets hurry” “good” the boys and the manager hurried to the plane but Hea pulled aside Jaejoong “you know you can talk to me if you need to right and I know there is something wrong” “there isn’t honest” “hey you two hurry it up” “yes coming” “sorry” Hea and Jaejoong got onto the plane and looked for their seats Jaejoong found his Hea was still looking when Junsu grabbed her ticket “yes Yunho gonna be happy” “why?” “you sit next to him” “oh no she doesn’t” “chill Yoochun nothing going to happen geeze chill” “fine but if he touches her I will” “stop it I can look after myself I am not a child anymore no I am not that child anymore im a whole new person” “im sorry” “tch” Hea took her seat next to Yunho who was smiling widely “nu uh don’t even get a thought or I snap you like a twig” “ok”

Ch7
Hea began to check the schedule when Yunho poked her “what?” “so what’s going on between you and Yoochun?” “huh nothing is going between us don’t be stupid” “so why does he act like he does with you I mean its been twice he has threatened to hurt me” “I don’t know now can I go back to finishing what I was doing?” “fine” Yunho stared at her writing “you write romantically” “huh?” “the way you hold the pen and how it leans towards the right means you are romantic” “what ever I always write like this” “so who the lucky guy?” “no one I am not into to guys” “what you mean you?” “eww no god no nothing like that I just  well it doesn’t matter alright can I go back to writing?” “ah sure” Yunho smiled Hea sighed “you know what im gonna go to the bathroom and when I come back I want you to just be quiet alright?” “huh” “look you are cute until you open that mouth of yours then the whole illusion is blown” “oh” Hea stood up and walked into the bathroom leaving Yunho speechless “wow she told you” “shut up Junsu” “eh what’s that?” “huh?” “the book it fell from her bag” “ah I don’t know” Yunho picked it up and flicked through there were drawings of apartment layouts and garden designs, dress designs then at the back was a letter Yunho read it *Yoochun I never meant those words I said in the hotel room I just misfired my words I guess I hurt you again once before we went through this and again you end up hurt see I cause this every time I am sorry please forget about me I beg you I just need to keep working I need this job, just the shock of seeing you again when I tried to lose myself from you like your parents warned me to I am sorry and if you want me to I will walk away again as I did before* Yunho read the words then looked at Yoochun who was sleeping “hey move a second I just gotta talk to Yoochun” “ok” Yunho walked over to Yoochun and tapped on his shoulder “yo read this but don’t let anyone know alright?” “who’s it from?” “you will know just do it ok” “alright when I can be bothered” “No! now it’s important” “alright chill I read it” Yunho went back to his seat and waited for Hea to return when she did he smiled “hey sorry for before” “eh it’s ok im sorry for yelling at you” “its ok I am a big mouth I like to be” “its ok ive had to put up with worse people before” “really?” “yes and now im here doing the job I love and im happy” “good well I will be more nicer to you ok?” “its ok just act normal” “ok” Hea looked over towards Yoochun “so you and Yoochun?” “ah nothing to each other” “right what I was gonna say is he could do with sorting out” Yunho laughed Hea smiled “really he looks ok” “im not so sure” Hea looked at him “right so” “hey Hea when we land I need you to arrange food for the boys ok?” “sure shall I ask them what they wanna eat now or when we land?” “it is up to you” “alright”
Once the plane landed Hea quickly got off and waited for the boys “alright I know a great place to eat here” “how?” “I studied here” “ooh cool what did you study?” “creative writing and dance” “ooh” “not just that I studied Korean but I didn’t pass that so well” “why aren’t you Korean?” “yeah but I failed on purpose I just lost faith” “right ok well food im starving” “well it’s a huge place how about you guys come with me we can eat there” “sounds good”  “alright come on” Hea took the boys to the restaurant “hey Hea’s here” “really?” the staff ran from the kitchen “oh my” “hey guys” “where have you been?” “I went back home” “really you didn’t tell us” “I did I left the note with Hyung” “he didn’t give it to us naughty Hyung  and who are these lovely looking boys?” “are they your boyfriends?” “eh no nothing like that” “ah sit, sit we get what ever you want” “no Obaasan I pay”  “no you are family I treat you as such now if I remember you want chicken fried rice?” “yeah” Hea bowed her head smiling as she tried not to cry “ok I will come back to get the other orders when you decide ok?” “yes Obaasan” Hea smiled as she lifted her head up “so what do you guys want?” “what’s on the menu?” “oh here” Hea handed them each a menu before walking outside “hey what’s up with her she changed all of a sudden?” “I have no idea” Yoochun followed Hea outside finding her sitting on the sidewalk “what’s going on?” “nothing I just needed to get some air” Yoochun sat next to her “here I think this belongs to you” he handed her the letter “huh where did you get this?” “it doesn’t matter but” “did you read it?” “well” “keep it I wrote it for you anyway” Hea stood up and walked back into the restaurant leaving Yoochun holding tightly onto the letter.

Ch8
“ok I know what I want” “good” Hea wrote them all down except for Yoochun’s “ok I go give it”  Hea walked into the kitchen and stood glaring “Hea something wrong?” “eh no, no everything is alright I came to give you the orders” “well there is only five here where is the other I counted six not including you” “ah well he will eat Omni rice it’s his favourite” “ah I see” “ok well you need help?” “no we have it you go relax and we can catch up later right?” “sure thank you Obaasan” “no problem sweetie” Hea hugged her then went and sat with the others “hey so what you order for Yoochun?” “anything” “right well he will hate that” “I couldn’t care less” “wow what?” “you heard” one by one they all stared at Hea then Yoochun walked in and sat next to her “what they looking at?” “I don’t know” “here you guys go”
“wow this is yummy” “thank you, hmm you seem polite maybe Hea will fall for you” “eh Obaasan no shh he isn’t my type” “im sure he is what’s your name?” “me?” Jaejoong looked up with rice stuck to his lip “yes you?” “um my name is Jaejoong” “oh loyal I like it sound perfect for my Hea” “Obaasan please” “ok, ok I stop I think im embarrassing her” she laughed as she left them eating their food Hea hid behind her hands “hehe first time ive seen someone act like that in ages its refreshing” “hey” “Changmin you don’t count” “why?” “you’re a guy” “so?” “shush so Hea is she family?” “not by blood” “how do you mean?” “I mean when I left Korea to come here to study I had no where to live so I used to sleep in their kitchen then one day they found me offered me a job to repay all the food I ate and then we just became a family since I…you know what that’s all that matters” “alright sounds like you were running from something” “was not” “right it doesn’t matter does it Hea” the manager tried to change the subject seeing Hea’s face suddenly change into one that looked like she was gonna kill someone with her chopsticks.

“hey Hea you remembered my food” “yeah” Yoochun sat smiling “heh?” “she remembered?” “um?” “nothing just nothing ok I just kinda saw it on the menu and I thought he wouldn’t like it so I ordered it but I guess I was wrong” “you hate him that much?” “I don’t hate anyone at all” “right because you are all sweet and innocent?” “look enough about me I have had enough about me” Hea slammed her hands onto the table before running outside and down the street before hiding in a old building she used to hide when she left Korea “what wrong?” “nothing you just don’t know how to shut your mouth do you?” “eh? This is all my fault?” “yes you just don’t leave things alone” “well maybe she shouldn’t work for us then” Jaejoong sat reading the menu Yoochun stood up “you know nothing about her she needs this job more than you know and you acting like that with her isn’t making it any easier for her you know she has had a very hard life up to now then she works and works to run away from her past but then you go and say all those things and…and.. Ah” “woah calm down we don’t know her but it is obvious you know her how?” Yunho grabbed Yoochun’s shoulders “she and I used to be friends but then something happened and she had to go away I never saw or heard from her again I had to forget about her but I couldn’t so I just got on with my life always thinking about where she was and what was she doing and who she was doing it with, wondering if she was happy or safe or.. Or I just wish I could have done more to protect her” “protect her?”
Jaejoong snuck away as Yoochun was talking “looking for Hea?” “yeah I just” “wanna see if she is ok?” “yes” “you will find her in the old building down the street she always hid there when her heart was in trouble hey don’t tell her though we bought it for her I was going to tell her later ok?” “ok I promise” “you are such a sweet lad” “um thank you” Jaejoong bowed and ran down the street and into the building calling out Hea’s name but to no answer Jaejoong stopped and sat on the floor “wonder if Hea is ok?” he sighed
“what is he doing?” Hea sat on a high bar swinging her legs as she watched Jaejoong looking at the floor suddenly Changmin walked in and right to Jaejoong  “hey found you” “stay away from me” “you know I cant do that” “Changmin stop it someone will see us” “like who we are the only ones here” Changmin grabbed hold of Jaejoong and pulled him closer before placing a kiss on his lips Jaejoong tried to push him away but gave into him Hea sat holding her hands over her mouth to stop her from gasping and disturbing them she watched afraid to move as Changmin pleasured Jaejoong.

Ch9
“Yoochun you care for Hea?” “yes always have but after what happened I wasn’t allowed to even think of her” “what happened what do you mean?” Yoochun shook his head “I cannot tell you it isn’t my place to do so besides I am afraid if anyone finds out she will lose her job” “no I wouldn’t fire her she has kept you boys in line hasn’t she?” “yes” “well I cant tell you I made a promise and I don’t want to break it”
Yoochun sat holding the letter Hea had wrote to him, “where Changmin go?” “no idea” “im gonna go play soccer for a while” “don’t go far we have to leave soon” “I wont” Junsu left, “so are you ok?” “yeah im fine” “I think we need a drink” Yunho smiled as he ordered more rice wine
“so what’s going on?” “ah Changmin where did you go?” “for a walk why?” “glad you are back um where is Jaejoong?” “how should I know?” “never mind he should be back soon” “oh are you talking about the black haired boy?” “yes” “ah he went to look for Hea” “oh sounds like he made a new friend” “well lord knows she deserves a good friend” “what?” “nothing” the woman smiled and left to go into the kitchen leaving the boys glaring Changmin looked angry “well hope she is ok” “she will be she is tough” “yeah”

Hea sat with her eyes widened as Jaejoong sat tidying himself and his tears falling “stupid I don’t want to be alone” he sniffled as he buttoned up his shirt Hea shook her head then took out her cell phone and called Jaejoong “hey” “where are you?” “im behind you” Jaejoong looked around “I cant see you?” “im sitting on the beam behind you look up” Jaejoong looked up “ah I see you um” “I saw everything” “you saw what we just did?” “yes” Jaejoong began to cry again Hea felt bad so she flipped off the bar and landed in front of him “look it matters not what I saw I wont tell anyone” “but?” “what you feel disgusting or is it something else?” Jaejoong looked at her smiling away “that’s just it I like you” Hea looked at him “so why you let Changmin do that to you?” “because I like it” Jaejoong scratched his head “uh oh its beginning to rain” “really?” “yes look” Hea pointed then grabbed hold of him “look at me you shouldn’t be ashamed of it” “but I don’t know what I want all I want is to be wanted I just don’t want to feel alone anymore” “why would you ever feel alone when you have all those guys around you and don’t forget your fans you cant even know the feeling of being alone” Hea suddenly got angry Jaejoong looked at her “why do you cry?” “nothing important” Hea turned to watch the rain before walking and sitting on a step Jaejoong looked at her he felt sad for her “Yoochun” “Yoochun has nothing to do with me not anymore” “huh so you do know him?” Hea looked at him “you really want to know? You really want to know the feeling of being lonely?” “yeah if it makes you feel better I will share it” Jaejoong stood looking at her “fine I tell you” Hea looked at the floor then sighed before looking back at him

“Yoochun and I were childhood friends we went to the same dance club together at first I thought he was a creepy kid who followed me around but then we became friends, we went to the same high school everyone thought we were dating but we weren’t I mean we thought about it but it never happened we were just good friends then one day he walked me home and I went inside ready to show my parents my grades but it was dark and I found my father in the kitchen holding a knife with blood on it so I ran to look for my mom but he chased me I tripped and fell hitting my eye on the edge of the stairs and I passed out”  Hea sniffled Jaejoong looked at her “so what happened after that?” “Yoochun saw where my mother was and heard me screaming for her then he ran in and found my father on top of me just about to push the knife into my chest he ran at him pulled him off and pushed him out of the window but…” “but?” “Yoochun got hurt because he saved me” “he wanted to” “so doesn’t mean he had to he should have let me die I would have been with my mother then” “and you wouldn’t be here” “I don’t care its not like I have a reason to still be here” Jaejoong looked at her and sighed “I don’t believe that there has to be something you want to stay for” “really like what?” “I don’t know hmm maybe to experience love” “well that hasn’t worked out at all” “why not?” “because every time they see this thing they run away” Hea pointed to the scar “but its tiny” “but its still there isn’t it?” Hea hid her face Jaejoong looked away before walking over and taking hold of Hea’s hand and knelt in front of her “look at me” “I cant” “why?” “im afraid” “of what?” “of what I want to do” Jaejoong smiled “and what do you want to do?” “kiss you” “kiss me?” “yes but I cant because you are in love with Changmin” “im not in love with Changmin” “huh but you two” “I don’t know what im doing”  Jaejoong lifted up Hea’s head and smiled before placing a kiss on her lips Hea was shocked she pulled her hand out of his but he pushed her against the pillar and leant into her his body pressed against hers as he kissed her harder Hea placed her hands on his shoulders he gently pulled her hands lower so they rested on his trousers  as he began to kiss her neck lowering each time until he reached her chest “no Jaejoong stop we cant do this” Hea moved away tidying her hair and looking at the rain Jaejoong smiled as he bit his lower lip “but you enjoyed it right?” “well yes but I cant love or feel anything for you” “why?” “because I love Yoochun” Jaejoong looked at her before standing behind her placing his hands into the front of her trousers and whispered into her ear “enjoy me whilst I last” “I don’t want to” Hea tried to pull away but she gave into him his touch was what she craved for years.

Ch10
“hey it getting late we have to be at the hotel in a few hours where are everyone?” “I don’t know well Junsu went to play football and we are here” “right well Hea sort everything out” “I think our manger is getting lazy maybe Hea should be our manager” Changmin laughed “hey no fair I got no one to be on my side” “aww its ok you do a fine job managing us boss” Yunho glared as he put his feet on the table “hey feet off” Obaasan slapped his feet off “ouch wow sorry” “you will be boy if you do that again” she smiled “right so why does Hea call you grandmother?” “she has no other family so here I am” “what she has no family how does that happen?” Changmin asked as he sat down “I no tell” she shook her head before clearing away the plates “why not?” “because its not my place to say if she wants you to know then she will tell you by the way feel free to call me Obaasan” “sure hey you need help Obaasan?” “sure thank you” Yoochun helped her clean away the plates and followed her into the kitchen “I know about you” “huh?” “look she still cares for you she never forgot about you” “how?” “she gave me this note to throw away seems she forgot to give it to you before she left I keep it with me here you should read it but do so when you are alone” Obaasan handed him the note and he placed it into his pocket before leaving the kitchen and sat glaring at the floor.

Junsu kicked the ball against the wall when he kicked it hard and it flew out of his sight “ah tch why do I do that?” he smiled as he scratched his head and ran after it “the hell is that noise?” he heard sounds echoing in the building so he went to see “what the?” he looked and found Jaejoong and Hea together “what the wow he knows how to move” Junsu laughed as he watched for a few moments before finding his soccer ball and leaving.
“Jaejoong?” “yes?” “we have to stop” “why?” “I cant do this not with you I just cant” Jaejoong kissed her and gently stroked her hair and smiled “don’t worry so much I know what I am doing” “it’s not that it’s well” “I  like this” “but Changmin?” “I like it this way better” Jaejoong smiled as Hea struggled to get out from under him but he held her tighter “just enjoy and let me in” “hehe too late for that” Hea smiled “funny” Jaejoong panted as he thrust faster.

“hey so when do we go to the hotel?” “in an hour have you seen anyone else?” “nope but I think Jaejoong will want his own room” Junsu smiled “why?” “he just seems like he would” “right well I call Hea and ask her to arrange it” “eh no, no I go to her I just saw her anyways so I ask her I need some air” “but you just got back here” “I need to” Junsu quickly walked to the old building “guys” “huh what?” “argh um nothing happened” Jaejoong covered up Hea so she could get tidied up “um you had better hurry manager getting angry and I saw what you two were up to oh Hea you need to make arrangements for Jaejoong to have his own room now” “why?” “I kind of said he would need it since you two are getting along well now” “huh we didn’t do anything” Hea stormed out and went to the others “Junsu she just needed cheering up” “and having sex with someone does that?” “well I don’t know I didn’t get to ask her” “tch Jaejoong you are a player” “I am not” “sure your not” Junsu and Jaejoong met with the others.
“ok I made a room change for Jaejoong” “how?” “well they said they couldn’t give you another room so I made a change um by the way Yunho im now your girlfriend but only for the room or id have to sleep in the van” Yunho smiled “no problem” “you touch her I will kill you” “Yoochun chill out im not going to so anything to her not unless she asked me to” Yunho smiled before Yoochun flew at him but Hea stood in front of Yunho and Yoochun hit her knocking her to the floor “Hea im sorry” “you stay away from me” Hea grabbed Yunho’s arm as he helped her up “ok we should go now”

ch11

“hey Obaasan I visit when im not busy ok” “you going now?” “yes im sorry I miss you” “no worry sweetie here take this with you” “huh?” “for your eye” “ah what” “it’s swollen” “right ok thank you Obaasan” “no worry be ok” Hea waved goodbye to Obaasan and got inside the van and sat in the back away from the others “hey you?” “huh me?” Yunho pointed to himself “yes you come here” “hurry it up we have to leave Yunho” “just a minute” “ok we wait in the van” the rest of them got inside as Yunho spoke to Obaasan “her eye” “what about it?” “give her this lotion it will help her” “alright I will make sure she gets it” “good make sure she uses it” “I said I will” “good now make sure she is happy” “huh?” “do as I say” ok” Yunho smiled as he got into the van and sat next to Hea but then Yoochun glared so he moved away a little “here Obaasan gave me this to give you um for your eye” “thanks”
The van drives to the hotel “ok I go check us all in” Hea quickly got out and hurried to the desk “hello um I have to check in” “name?” “Yung Hea” “ah yes those guys here are all the keys and your requested menu I would like to welcome you to our hotel may we handle your luggage?” “yes please” great please wait for a moment” Hea waited as the boys walked in “here are your keys to the rooms um this one was mine but its now Jaejoong’s” Hea handed them the keys the manager rushed them into the rooms leaving Hea alone with the luggage “Miss I am sorry I cannot find anyone to help with the luggage” “oh it’s ok I will handle it no worry ok” “are you sure it looks a lot?” “trust me I have carried more than this before so I be ok” Hea smiled as he giggled before attending to other people Hea looked and sighed before grabbing the bags and suitcases and took them to the elevator “heh no way I take stairs” she shook her head at the thought of carrying seven bags and three suitcases up the stairs to the twelfth floor, “Miss there is an elevator” “I know but I cant get inside” “why not?” “im afraid of small spaces” “ah well good luck” “yeah thanks” she smiled before walking up the stairs.

“hey where are my bags?” “I don’t know” “shouldn’t have someone brought them by now?” “yes” “well they will be here don’t worry” “I wasn’t” “hey Changmin why do you keep quiet?” “why not saves me having to say anything stupid at stupid times” “huh?” “see” Changmin stared at the floor as the others messed around Yoochun sat staring at his hands
“what is up with you?” “I hit her” “so?” “don’t you get it I hit a girl and not just any girl I hit my girl” “your girl?” “not in that way I know that will never happen but I hit her when I was supposed to have protect her I guess she was right to leave” “shut up maybe you should just talk to her” “Junsu how can I she doesn’t even want me to see her” Jaejoong slammed his fists on the table before storming to his room and sitting on the window seat “what’s up with him?” “I don’t know hey Changmin go see if he is ok” Yunho charged him “fine” Changmin followed Jaejoong “hey you ok?” “you stay the hell away from me” “why?” “you know don’t pretend to play all innocent” “I wasn’t I am innocent” Changmin smiled closing the door behind him and walked over to Jaejoong gently sitting on the bed behind him “get away” “im just sitting down besides I was told to see if you were ok so here I am” Jaejoong suddenly twitched he knew when he was alone with Changmin things happened things he wasn’t sure he liked suddenly Changmin had his arms around his waist and began to unbutton his trousers and sliding his cold hands into his boxers taking hold of Jaejoong’s member, Jaejoong closed his eyes as Changmin pleasured him “how do you say you don’t like it but let me do it?” “I don’t know I don’t know what im doing” “you want me to do it slower?” “yes” Jaejoong panted as Changmin caressed him slower releasing the pleasure Jaejoong moaned with each thrust of Changmin’s cold hand “I..” “woah Jaejoong you were horny” Changmin laughed as he let go of Jaejoong and sat back licking his fingers of Jaejoong “I wasn’t until you came” “tell me about it you don’t keep it in for long do you?” Changmin smiled as he left Jaejoong’s room to tell the others
“he’s fine just tired” “ah ok we leave him to sleep for awhile” “anyone seen Hea she’s not in my room?” “last I saw she was down in the lobby” “right I go” “no you stay her I will go” Yunho walked out to find Hea

“stupid why do I have to be afraid of small spaces?” she mumbled as she had only just made it to the eighth floor , Yunho got to the lobby “excuse me has Hea gone anywhere?” “no she took the luggage up the stairs I tried to tell her there was an elevator but she said she was scared of small spaces and then took the stairs” “haha really?” “yes really” “alright tch I guess I go help her then” “good for you”
Yunho ran up the stairs calling out her name “huh Yunho?” “what floor you on now?” “eighth I refuse to go any higher until I take a break” “ok I help” “what floor you on?” “fourth” “already?” “I run fast” “alright” Hea smiled as he ran and she sat on the stairs looking at her feet suddenly there were another set of feet “well?” “eh you got her fast” “I work out” “so you do” “um you was gonna carry all these by yourself?” “yes why?” “they have people for this you know” “yeah but they were all busy and I knew you all wanted your luggage and you all rely on me to get things done but I really didn’t want to let you all do…” before she could finish the sentence Yunho had pressed his lips against hers pushing her onto the luggage he kissed her hard placing his hands into hers as they lay together kissing passionately Hea pulled away “hey no if Yoochun finds out this happened he hurt you” “I don’t care besides you are your own woman you can do what you want hell you can even do who you want so come on lets get these things to their owners and we can finish this in our room” Yunho helped her to her feet Hea knew she shouldn’t be doing this but she wanted to be touched but it was the wrong person.

Ch12
“here are all your luggage sort it yourselves im gonna sit down” “huh” “she just carried them up the stairs” “what why?” “everyone was busy and she didn’t want to let us down” “I feel bad now” “why?” “for just leaving her there” Yoochun stood up “she be ok she is strong” “im gonna go say sorry to her” “um no she still doesn’t want to see or talk to you” Yunho pushed him away before leaving to his room closing the door behind him and sat on the chair Hea hid in the bathroom “Hea you ok?” “yeah im fine” “you coming or what?” “I don’t want to do anything with you” “huh but you were alright a moment ago” “was I you didn’t even give me the chance to say anything” Hea left the bathroom and sat on the window Yunho sat next to her and gently began to play with her fingers “get off me stop acting like this I am working for you I am not your whore” “huh but I?” “don’t even” Hea ran out of the room and ran past Yoochun and into the car park and hid behind a black car, Yoochun ran after her “Hea where are you” but she didn’t answer “Hea look I want to say sorry” but Hea stayed quiet as Yoochun searched around he saw her feet sticking out from behind his car he smiled as he walked around pretending to look for her “Hea I don’t know if you are here but please I need you to understand me” but she didn’t answer she looked as he walked around until she lost sight of him “phew I can leave” she sighed as she turned to leave “ah found you” Yoochun sat behind her so that when she turned she had to look directly at him “stay away from me” “Hea?” “I just” she stood to her feet ready to run but he grabbed her arm and shoved her into the back seat of his car and got into the drivers seat before driving away to a open space “now you have to listen to me” “no I don’t” Hea covered her ears  as Yoochun got out and pulled her with him “look” “get away from me” Hea ran from him stopping when she heard him shout “Hea your star is the brightest” Yoochun shouted Hea’s heart stopped freezing her to the spot Yoochun ran behind her “I still remember that night you told me your dream” “why?” “because it is important to me no you were important to me it was the night I was gonna ask you to be my girl but when I saw you smiling I knew our goals were different so I couldn’t ask” Hea looked at him “what’s so funny?” “nothing” Hea giggled Yoochun smiled confusedly “what?” “that night I remember too I told you my dream hoping you were gonna be the one I could share it but when you didn’t ask me I got cold like I was shut out I hated it I always thought you were gonna be the one but I guess I was wrong” Hea turned away and sniffled Yoochun put his arms around her shoulders Hea closed her eyes before pulling away

“no too late” “its not too late just let me” “I said no” Hea punched him before running but he grabbed her hand and pulled her close to him “you can stop being so strong now” “I cant” “he has gone everyone who can hurt you has gone” “no they haven’t” “huh?” “you can still hurt me” Yoochun’s heart stopped “I could never hurt you Hea I love you I always have” Hea pulled away and stood looking at him “you never did tell me what your reason for living was” Yoochun smiled Hea glared at him “you’re the reason” Hea mumbled “huh?” “I said you idiot you are the reason look I couldn’t just give up you I went away to try move on but I couldn’t I knew I wanted you in my life even if it was just a memory but that memory made me happy” Hea smiled as tears fell “and you know something the stupid house I live in I made sure there was room for both of us I just clinged to the hope that one day I’d find you and… and” Hea stumbled to find the words Yoochun grabbed hold of her and hugged her closer before smiling “you came back” he whispered as he looked at her Hea sniffled “hey no cry” he wiped away her tears before kissing her their hands held onto each other tightly with their bodies caressing each other closely “Hea let me hear your reason” “why?” “because then it will be real” Hea smiled as Yoochun held her tightly “my reason is you” she whispered.

Ch13

“hey so wonder if Hea is ok?” “why should we care?” “well she has been working hard for us” “I don’t care that’s her job besides if she wanted easy work she shouldn’t have chose this job” Yunho glared as his words echoed around the room Junsu hid behind his pillow “what do you think Changmin?” “who cares im going to sleep” he left the room leaving Junsu alone with Yunho “you what about you?” Junsu peeked our from behind the pillow and smiled “she deserves a break I mean she did carry the luggage to this floor” “I helped” “yeah with two bags” “shut up” Yunho got into his bed and turned away from Junsu who sat glaring “hey you asked what I thought and I told you so don’t get angry with me”
Changmin knocked on Jaejoong’s room “go away im sleeping” “yeah sounds like it anyway I need to talk” “I don’t want to talk to you” “oh come on” “no Changmin go away” Changmin took hold of the handle and let himself in finding Jaejoong lay on the bed shirtless “hey get out” “I need to talk” “fine talk but stay away from me you understand?” “yes but you are turning me on just by talking to me we need to do something about that so we not?” Changmin smiled as he bit his lower lip Jaejoong pulled on his shirt but Changmin tugged it “get off” “ooh naughty” Changmin smiled before pulling off Jaejoong’s shirt but it got caught covering his eyes Changmin leant closer placing a kiss onto his lips as he tried to pull off the shirt Jaejoong began to kiss him back tearing at Changmin’s jacket pushing him towards the door “we need to lock the door” Jaejoong whispered as he turned the lock on the door Changmin smiled as he pushed Jaejoong back onto the bed and lay on top of him gently kissing his chest before unbuttoning his jeans and sliding his hand into his boxers and gently taking hold of Jaejoong’s erect member “why you don’t fight me anymore?” Changmin smiled as he began to kiss Jaejoong’s neck gently biting with each touch of his lips Jaejoong gasped “because I want this too” he smiled as Changmin began to thrust his hand on his member making Jaejoong feel in heaven, “maybe we should try the other way” he moaned as Changmin moved him upright and kissed him “let me finish first” Changmin moved faster trying to make Jaejoong shout in ecstasy “I’m almost..” Jaejoong panted as Changmin smiled “done” Changmin kissed Jaejoong’s neck “you come quick” he whispered as Jaejoong fell forward onto the bed Changmin wrapped his arms around him “you know no one can ever find out about this” “I don’t care I am glad no one can know” “why?” “just imagine what they will say” “there is nothing wrong with being in love” Changmin smiled but then realised what he had just said Jaejoong looked at him “you love me?” “I tried not to” “but I” “I know you don’t love me” “no it’s not that it’s just we would have to hide to be with each other” “I wouldn’t care as long as im with you” Changmin smiled Jaejoong looked at him his smile wide Jaejoong was in love with him but was afraid to tell him.
“I want you” “huh?” “I want you” Jaejoong spoke Changmin smiled “really?” “yes” Jaejoong pulled off his jeans and tugged at Changmin’s trousers forcing him to unbutton them and taking them off “you know this is the first time I’ve” “it’s ok” Jaejoong slipped his hand into Changmin’s boxers and gently touched his erection Changmin gasped “we should” “I think so too” Changmin gently pushed Jaejoong back onto the bed so he was on his knee’s before quickly inserting himself into him Jaejoong shouted the pain was unbearable but he loved Changmin so he went with the pain ignoring it as Changmin thrust deeper into him Changmin worried for Jaejoong “am I hurting you?” “no” “you sure?” “I am” Jaejoong lied as Changmin thrust faster, Jaejoong cried out “Changmin faster im almost.. I” Changmin thrust faster leading Jaejoong to come Changmin pulled out and wrapped his arms around Jaejoong holding him tightly as they both lay in each others arms Jaejoong smiled as he looked at Changmin “hey dude I care for you” “but you cant tell me you love me?” “I don’t want to yet I want to say it when I mean it” “it’s ok I wont hurry you” Changmin kissed Jaejoong passionately as they fell asleep.

Secretly Jaejoong couldn’t tell him he loved him because his heart was already with someone else but it was too late Hea Yung to him will always be his friend nothing more.

Ch14
“Hea I made mistake” Yoochun looked at her as he sat in the driver seat “mistake?” “I let you leave” “hey you didn’t let me leave I left without you knowing I knew you would stop me I wanted you to stop me but I had to do it for myself” “huh if I had stopped you where would we be?” Hea looked at him “I’d be with my mother right now I wouldn’t be here with you and I wouldn’t be able to do this” Hea moved over to the driver seat and sat on Yoochun’s knee and slid her hands into his shirt as she leant forward to kiss him “what are you?”  “the things I wanted to do” Hea stopped and looked at him “what’s wrong?” Yoochun shook his head “there’s nothing wrong I just don’t think we should be doing this yet” Hea looked at him confused before moving away “we should get to the others” “yeah sure” Hea moved into the back seat and lay down staring at her hands before Yoochun started the car but then looked into the mirror at Hea he sighed and stopped the engine and climbed into the back seat taking hold of Hea and pulling her closer to him before whispering “I cant leave you like that” he smiled as he slid his hand into the front of her trousers and kissed her lips Hea began to un button his trousers and trail her fingers up his back  Yoochun kissed her harder laying her onto the seat and lay on top of her pleasured her until she screamed out his name “Yoochun I” “its ok just enjoy it” he smiled before kissing her neck lowering until he reached her trousers waistband then pulled them lower and began to kiss her caressing her inner thigh with his fingers as he inserted his tongue to pleasure her further sending her into heaven,

“Hea I love you” Yoochun smiled  Hea sat up and looked at him “you love me?” “yeah is that a problem?” “no just that it was weird” “why?” “no one has even gotten this close to me so” Yoochun hugged her “um we should get back to the others because you have to do a show tonight” “right I forgot but im just happy you are back in my life again” “aww you little romantic” Hea giggled
“hey they are back” “great” Hea and Yoochun walked into the room Junsu looked at them “um they seem happier now” “yeah maybe they both got laid” “god no” the manager stormed in and stood in front of Hea and Yoochun “now look what is going on here I thought I told you no girlfriends”  “she isn’t my girlfriend” “what?” Hea glared at him before hitting him “I knew it” she stormed out of the room and into Yunho’s room and hid in the bathroom “what the?” Jaejoong stood up “you know Yoochun you are an asshole you don’t know how she feels at all” “what?” “you heard me” Yoochun looked at himself in the mirror “you know what yes she is my girl and I don’t care what anyone else says or thinks I have spent too long without her now that she is back in my life I don’t want her to go again” he yelled slamming his feet onto the floor “well too late I have to fire her”  “no she needs the job if you fire her I will quit” “Yoochun?” “like I said” “me too” Jaejoong joined in “an me” Junsu stepped in Yunho looked at Changmin “you know what me to” Yunho stood next to Junsu Hea snuck out of the bathroom and stood at the boy’s doorway looking through the gap “Changmin?” the manager asked “you too?” “hmm I don’t know is she really worth it?” Changmin looked at Yoochun Jaejoong smiled “she knows a lot you know even the building” he smiled “eh me too I want her to stay” he smiled the manager looked “fine she can stay but you guys are responsible for her if she messes up you guys sort it ok?” “yes sir” Hea ran in and hugged Yoochun “I knew you were lying” “how?” “because I know you dummy” she smiled “well right then I officially make you my girl ok?” “ok”
“Hea I need you to ready the van for the boys and you need to go to the hall before they do check on security and the V.I.P room ok?” Hea bowed “I’m on it” Hea smiled as she kissed Yoochun on the cheek and made her way to the hall.
Yoochun fought for Hea now he wasn’t going to let her go.

~END~

Origami Of Love fanfic starring TVXQ

Origami Love.

"you have been accepted into our world welcome"
I read the words on the letter i was shocked I applied for the job two years ago and had completly forgot about it until now but i get to go to Virginia in America to live now i needed to get out of this stupid country and now i can.
*what events will take place now for the girl name Kimi?*

Ch1.
"mom i gotta go my plane is here and it's last call let me go" "im gonna miss you" "we can still talk you know its not like im leaving the planet" "sure sure" "you have my cell number and my email so just let me get on with my life you know how hard ive been trying to get out of this place" "i know you better go" "goodbye mom be safe ok" "sure sure" i smiled as i made my way through the crowds towars the plane i handed the woman my ticket as i went "have a great trip" she bowed i walked quickly to the plane i was excited because the company had gotten me first class seats and two of them how awesome i made my way to my seat looking around for "seat 3a and 3b" i mumbled when i walked into some tall guy who was just stood there he turned "watch..it" "sorry" "no problem you look lost" "i am" "wheres your seat?" "3a and 3b" "you have two seats?" "yeah just incase i want to switch" i giggled nervously cos the guy was cute then he smiled as he put his bag away "i know where it is" "cool" i followedd him as he walked towards the front then he pointed to my seat "right next to ours" he smiled so i looked there was another guy sitting with shades on and headphones "thanks" "no problem enjoy the flight" "hmm" "whats hmm" "i'm kinda well sounds stupid to a complete stranger but i have never flown before" "ah well just concentrate on something else" "right thanks again" i smiled as i sat down trying to hide my face from the shame
"hey jun you being nice to strangers again?" the other guy asked taking off his shades "she didnt know where her seat was" "thats what the staff are for" this guy was kinda of an ass i wanted to smack him but instead i turned to him "you know you are kinda rude" "huh and who are you?" "no one important but it's people like you who make me wanna smack them geeze he was being nice the world needs alot more people like him" "tch" i turned away and took out my letter a re read it "jun who is she?" "i didnt get her name" "yo your name?" "huh" "are you slow i asked your name" "Baka be a little more nicer" i replied but didnt tell him my name "Jae chill geeze i know you are tired but" "shut" i so wanted to get up and hit him he got out of his seat and sat in my empty seat "you your name... please" "see how hard was it to be nice?" i watched as he pinched the skin inbetween his eyebrows and looked down "relax man geez you look as if you are gonna explode" "well" "well what?" "name" "oh sorry it's Kimi" "hello i didnt mean to sound like that just then" "what you mean like the complete ass" "yes exactly" "hmm name?" "what?" "your name" "oh right Jeajong" "ooh Korean?" "how do you know?" "because my mother is korean" "is she so where were you born?" "the Uk" "oh" "his name?" "who?" "funny your friends name" "oh junsu" "nice to meet you Jun-kun" "jun-kun?" "yes sorry my father is japanese" "right so you would be" "yes i'd be half Korean and half Japanese and yes ive heard all of the jokes too" i stared at my feet i needed some new shoes i giggled quietly "i need new shoes" i blurted then covered my mouth "strange thing to say" "and if you hadnt noticed i didnt mean to say it" "right well it was fun talking to you Kimi-chan" "yeah" i watched as he walke back to his seat Junsu glaring at him for suddenly being so nice which led him to teasing jea, i took my shoes off so my feet would relax yes i know public place and all but my feet dont smell, hmm bathroom i needed it now so i searched for it eventually asking a host where it was he took me right to it.

"yo her shoes" "what about them?" "whats her shoe size" "what?" "i wanna know" "why?" "nevermind i do it myself" Jea looked at the size and then quicky got back to his seat i skipped back to my seat Junsu glaring at me as i tied up my shoes suddnely i remided myself i was on a plane and began to panic "you ok?" "oh yeah just slightly panicking" "why?" "erm im on a plane" "and?" "i dont like heights much" "oh erm well just close your eyes and think you are somewhere else" "no" "why?" "cos if i close my eyes i will fall asleep" "well then sleep it is a long flight" "but i dont want to wake up and im the only one here" "you wont besides i will wake you before we land ok" "ok" i was surprised at his kindness i wasnt used to it but i went to sleep i dreamt of a fire clearing a field and i was stood in the middle helping the flames when i felt a hand on my head i opened my eyes "erm wakey wakey" "thanks" "no problem by the way not to be rude or anything but have you eaten at all?" "huh?" "your stomach was growling" "oh right erm well" "here" he handed me a small see through packet with two rice crakers in i knew what they were because i had a bag full of them and they were my fave things to eat.
"thanks" "no problem" "we are getting off now erm you need help?" "no i got it thanks" i grabbed my bag and went to find my others following junsu and jeajong to the terminal i searched for my bags and when i found them i pulled them off the twirly thing and onto a trolly and struggled towards the doors to leave and go to my new home.

ch2
the bags fell from the trolly as i went outside it was cold "hey you need help" "huh?" "i help you" "erm again thanks" "no problem" "jea we need to get our of here before.." "shut up" "oh sorry" "look junsu she needed help besides wast it you who told me to be nicer?" "true but fans" "but none are here" "yet" "look its ok i can get this myself" i looked as a girl stood taking photogrpahs on her cellphone and looked as Jea and Junsu covered their faces pretty quick "erm where are you headed?" "Virginia" "us too come on we take you quick" Jun-kun grabbed my bags and ran with them to a car shoving them into the boot and Jea running after him "come on" he yelled as the girl carried on taking pictures i glared at her then walked towards her snatching her phone and looking through the pics all were of us i felt sick "hey you know this is invasion of privacy you know" "and?" "and i get to take these away" "waht no you cant" "watch me" i deleted the pics and took the memory card from her phone then handed her phone back then skipped to the car "what the?" "she was taking photos of you guys" "and?" "i deleted them and took her memory card" "why?" "because it was just rude" "we are used to it" "huh?" "just get in before others come" i saw the look on thier faces did i do something wrong? i got into the car and sat quietly as Jeajong rove into the town i was going to be living "so where you live?" "here" i handed him the paper with the address on he laughed as he showed junsu who looked at me "we're staying here to" "what?" "next door to be exact" "oh erm do i feel stupid" "why?" "i dunno i mean you guys just made me feel like i had done something wrong" "you didnt it was just the way you handled the girl it was shocking" "why?" "becasue we have never seen it done like that" "sorry" "its awesome" i sat quietly as they began to speak korean i didnt know the language my parents didnt teach me then when the car stopped i wanted out so i fell out and lay on the floor "erm what are you?" "i fell" "right" "true she did i saw the whole thing" another guy walked towards the car "hey glad to see you guys" "yes long flight" "and who is this clumsy thing?" "we met her on the plane" "met?" "met as in Junsu helped her" "ah" "but it was you who she put in place" "huh?" "yeah he was being all grumpy and she joined in and yelled at him" "nice one" "thanks erm my bags?" "oh yeah sorry" i watched as they pulled them out placing them onto the ground i grabbed my bags and ran to my new home and looked for the keys but couldnt find them "erm i am confuzzled" "by what?" "im supposed to be living here but the company havent left the keys" "ah right that i guess these belong to you" the new guy handed me the keys, i unlocked the door and looked inside it was decorated in whites the living room was dark red with black i looked further into the living room and screamed "what?" "Piano" "yeah and?" "this was my fathers i thought she got rid of it" "oh heres a note it was stuck to it" he handed me the note it read "Kimi-chan i told your mother on the day of your 23 birthday that my piano was to be given to you,i know how much you loved to play it with me, i made sure that if i was gone before your birthday then it had to be given to you and no one else i know your mother favours the others over you but truthfully you are my fave i am proud..." i stopped reading it i couldnt it was too sad so Junsu grabbed it "i am proud of you daughter even though i split from your mother i will always love her she is and always will be my love, be strong in all you do and you will succeed, and yes i know that you think love will never find you but believe in love and it will find you eventually just keep the faith, Kimi my Kimi your heart is good and true fly pretty bird fly, fly free my beautiful Kimi i love you~Father~" i let him read even though we had just met i felt attatched to him "wow this is a beautiful piano" "huh?" the new guy was sat infront of the keys staring at it i watched as he smiled.

ch3
"erm name?" i asked as i watched him turn to me "Yoochun" "another Korean" "whats wrong with Koreans?" he asked looking mad "chill she's half Korean dude" "and let me guess" he walked around looking at me then he put his head next to mine and smiled i felt like hitting him in the nose "the other half is Japanese?" "how?" "your eyes" "huh erm welli better get unpacked" "yeah" Jeajong brought in the rest of my bags and dropped them on the floor "guys we gotta" "yeah sorry"
"hey nice meeting you" "you too" i smiled as they all left yoochun was the last to leave closing the door behind him.
i stood looking around and sighed as i stared at the piano my father the goofball he got into a fight at work and some shelves fell on him crushing his chest ever since then my family hadnt been the same and began to resent me but hey i got away and i met some pretty cute guys too.
i grabbed my bags and pulled them up to my room i looked out of the window there was another room right across mine but i ignored it i went back to unpacking my stuff and placing my clothes into their places in the space.
"thank you father" i smiled as i went downstairs and sat at the piano there was a small note stuck in between the keys "Kimi i got a song for you ~father~" i looked in the seat where we kept the music sheets there it was my fave song then i looked underneath and there was another song but without a title so i placed the untitled song infront of me on the piano,
i hadnt learned to play the piano i just liked to hear it but now was the time to learn i guess i mean i could play it but not great.
i began to play the song pretty badly so i stopped and sighed "i cant do this" i mumbled as i looked at the time "ah late" i went to bed hopefully the morning would be better for me.
The morning arrived and shone through the house i had found out who the room across from mine belonged to i saw last night as i walked around in the darkness it was Yoochun's i walked downstairs after getting dressed when a knock on the door scare me i went to see who it was when it opened "Kimi?" "eh erm why are you able to get in here?" "i have keys my parents own the house" "oh" at this point i could swear i had a arrow pointing to me with the word stupid written all over it "erm anyway" "what?" "i wanted to see if you needed anything.. why do you have cereal in your hair?" "argh what oh the box fell on me" "right so you need anything?" "erm what makes you think i need anything?" "because last night you were wondering around in the dark i saw you through my window" "eh hehe why were you looking?" "my desk is under my window i was sat writing stuff and i saw you by the way nice jammies" "eh bunny" "yeah cute hmm so?" "so what?" "you need anything?" "oh yes more origami paper you know where i can get some?" "you do origami?" "no well im trying to make a crane or a swan but it doesnt turn out so good see" i showed hima ball of white paper it was supposed to have been a swan he laughed taking tp ball out of my hands "i know how to make them" "teach me?" "another time" "aww k" i bowed my head as he glared at me then the others walked in "yo" "ok why do people keep walking into my apartement" "ah sorry we used to use this as our hangout" "erm i live here now so" "right we will leave" "no its ok i gotta go check in at work so feel free to carry on as you did i dont mind unless you eat all of my rice crackers i will have to hurt you" "ooh ok rice crackers off llimit" "well see ya" i smiled as i walked outside and made my way to work i stopped at the reception desk "erm im supposed to work here but im lost" "name please" "huh?" "we have a list of newcomers" "ah right my name is Kimi Yamamoto" i watched as the woman looked at the list and sighed "its not on here" "huh but i got this letter" "lemme see" i handed her the letter "this isnt from us see" she showed me the logo "oh erm do i feel stupid" "it's ok dont be erm maybe i can get you a meeting with the boss you have any skills and such?" "yes" i handed her my file she looked through it and gasped "wow you are skilled you'd be more perfect here then our boss well i will try set up a meeting but i really think you should make up your own company" "thanks well have a nice day miss?" "sonia my names sonia" "ok nice to meet you bye" i bowed she seemed nice i went back home and found the guys playing video games so i walked up stairs and flew onto my bed hiding my face in my pillow "erm something wrong?" "no" "erm i ate a few packets of the crackers sorry" i shot up "how many? erm 12" i looked at him "Junsu you know you will have to replace them?" "i will sorry but they are my fave" "mine too" i lay back down and sighed as he stood there i didnt know what he was thinking.
"kimi-chan you seem down" "well yeah im lying down on the bed" "funny i mean never mind" "hey whats this?" i forgot i had just thrown my file on the floor Junsu picked it up.
"kimi Yamamoto skills:singing,lockpicking,her own style of weaponry{can fight with steel fans}, cooking,high ranked with maths and science, patented her own brand of fans, won the fith, sixth and seventh Karate championships etc" he read aloud i hated the words i just wanted to be me and not all of that.

ch4
"kimi you did all of this?" "erm yeah dont tell anyone" "but you should be proud of all of this" "no" i grabbed the file from him and hid it under my bed "you tell anyone and i well i guess id be sad" "i wont" "good and thanks" he glared at me "you sing too?" "huh?" "the CD" "what CD" "this one" "oh erm that was.." "wow is this you?" "erm yeah i used to cosplay and sing songs as the character" "cool" "yeah my ipod is full of me" i giggled "you listen to other bands?" "nope just me" "erm ok can i hear?" "no" i smiled grabbing the CD i went downstairs and sat in the kitchen "Kimi erm can you cook?" "yes why let me guess you hungry?" "yeah can you make us something?" "can you get me some help then" "whith what?" "yo Yoochun help please?" "i shouted as he ran in "sure" "erm plates and bowls and stuff i dont know where they are?" "oh here" he took out two bowls and stuff "what are you making?" "the Kimi special" "the what?" "the kimi special just shut up and help" "ok" i made mini curry bread with peanut mash potato balls i made Yoochun taste it first "woah this is" "i know horried right i must be the only one who likes it" "no baka i mean wow this is yummy" "really?" "yeah mines already gone see" "wh.. i just served it it was still hot" "i know" "baka" i giggled as Yoochun called the others to sit at the table luckly there was enough for more for Yoochun i served them the plates and went inside "you not eating?" "nope well i will do later" i looked one person was missing "erm where is junsu?" "dunno" "hey sit and eat you look sick" "huh not a nice thing to say to a girl" "yeah Jeajong" i smiled as i grabbed a plate and placed some of the food on then sat at the tabel with the others it reminded me of home i kinda missed it "yoochun go get junsu" "im eating" "fine Yo Jun get your butt down here food is up" next thing he ran right our of the house and sat down there were others here too i was kinda scared of one "erm who?" "ah right he is Changmin and that one is Yunho" "erm nice to meet you" "yep same" "ok i want more" "erm yoochun you will get fat" "what no way anyways this is so yummy" "its ok i havent touched mine you can have it" "really?" "yeah i will get something later" "aww lookit they are already sharing" "yeah it's like they are married" "baka" i glared at them talking so i moved away which led them into a huge laughing fit "ok well i'm going" "where?" "leave you guys alone" "aww you upset her now" "i'm not upset besides i got to practice something" "ooh yeah like your origami" "baka" "wait she cant do origami" "nope" i stood glaring at yoochun before going inside and sitting at the piano looking at the sheet music i pressed key when Yunho walked in "can you play?" "not very well" "hmm let me see?" "sure" he stood behind me and read the sheet "hmm nice song" i looked at the keys then stood up "hmm" "mind if i try it?" "go ahead" i watched as he sat and began to play the notes drifted towards me "why are you crying?" "huh im not" "it looks like you were going to" "i wasnt..it's the song it just reminds me of something" "ah something specail?" "nope something i kinda lost out on" "oh you seem to lose out on alot of things" "hey not everything i did win three karate championships in a row" "woah" he glared at me suddenly i didnt feel scared of him it was more like i was like his little sister "yo fool we gotta get places" "sure sure nice meeting you little kimi-chan" "you too" i sat back at the piano as they left "erm kimi did i upset you today?" "no yoochun" "if i did i didnt mean to i just dunno how to act around you" "erm normally would be great" "huh i mean sure" "well its not like we like each other right well then just be yourself no matter how goofy or strange it is" "sure well if you need anything" "yep you were supposed to teach me how to make an origami swan" "ah right i will sometime..by the way that song is called Bolero" he smiled then left in a hurry forgetting to close the door i went to close it but saw the guys goofing around taking shots at yoochun because of something.

ch5.
i woke in the middle of the night i dunno who decorated my room but why did they place the bed right infront of the window so as i sat up i could see right into the other room i sat up and looked around the light in the other room turned on and yoochun walked in with nothing but a towel i lay back down before he saw me but i swung my arm and turned the lamp on by accident "argh baka" i whispered then *bang* a rock hit my window so i went over and looked yoochun sat holding up a peice of paper with writing on "you ok?" so i wrote back stupidly on a duck shaped paper "yes im ok" he wrote back "if you want we can talk" "sure through paper XD" "yeah if you want" "arent you busy" "with what?" "your friends" "they are asleep" "oh erm well" "what?" "put a shirt on you will get sick" "funny ok" "im awesome" "yeah and im the master" "cute" "what is?" "you" "huh oh why am i?" "you just are" "oh ok well then" "then?" "then you are cute too" "erm thanks XD" "yeah so erm" "erm?" "are you busy?" "nope" "why are you awake?" "nightmare" "you ok?" "yes nightmares cant kill me" "funny" "i hate this thing" "what thing?" "where my bed is" "oh i put it there" "well then i changed my mind" "about what?" "the bed baka!" "oh" "i like it here" "bet you do" "ok dont try be funny" "thank you" "for what?" "being you" "oh well then no problem" "goodnight" "goodnight"
it was fun to admit it talking alone with yoochun even though it wasnt actual talking more like code or something i went to sleep with a smile on my face for some reason i woke up to noise in the living room in the morning so i threw myself out of bed and down the stairs "what the erm did you just throw youself from the top of the stairs?" "yeah and why are you all here again?" "erm you not hurt?" "no no please explain why i got up to video games?" "eh erm junsu did it" i looked the realised i was still in my jammies "argh crap crap crap" i panicked as i tried to run up the stairs but ended up tripping and falling up them "she is pretty grumpy" "dude you did just wake her up at 6 am in the morning" "and?" "and getting up to such a crap game is annoying i beat this thing in half an hour" "huh no way i am the best at this thing and i still havent completed it" "give it here" i took hold of the controller and beat the game for the second time "how the?" "simple" "ok how about you fight against me" "sure i will beat you too" Junsu and i chose our characters "so i will choose the stupidest character so you will have a chance" "blah" i chose the training dummy he chose the boss character "round 1 fight" "player one wins" "how the it had only just started i only took one step" "i am good" "best two out of three?" "sure" "yo guys kimi just beat junsu at his game" "what no one has" "watch" the guys sat in the living room all except yoochun i hadnt seen him "round 1 fight"..."player one wins" "woah junsu shes a girl" "and?" "ok i give you win" "aww ok next match?" "sure" "round one fight"..."player two wins" "yey you win" "yes told you" i let him win and they all knew it except him yoochun walked in holding a bag "kimi" "yuppers" "origami?" "sure" "erm yunho dont we need to go somwhere today?" "yep come on junsu you need to calm down" "what i am calm" yunho kicked him "ah ok i need to calm down" changmin followed yunho and junsu outside "ok so we will meet up later" "sure" Jee-kun left closing the door behind him i stood glaring "well that wasnt weird one little bit" "yeah i wonder" "hmm be right back" "ok" i skipped into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water then went back to yoochun "so swan right?" "yep" "see you fold it like this and then this" "stop im just lost now see" i held out a scrunched peice of paper "ok ok erm maybe origami isnt for you" "maybe but the swan is pretty" "aww maybe i make one for you" "really?" "sure why not" i watched as he folded the paper it looked easy but i couldnt do it "here ya go" he handed me the swan "thankies" i coldnt stop staring at it "i guess you like it" "yep so your friends seem a little nervous of other people" "yeah it's because of the fans" "fans of what?" i sat staring at him..

ch6
"you dont know?" "hmm know what?" "nevermind" "oh ok" "what wrong?" "nothing" "tell me i can see it" "see what?" "something wrong ive only known you for a few days and even i know when something is wrong with you" "hmm its just that.." "just what?" "i dont like being lied to" "well if i tell you i will have to kill you" "what really?" "no not really baka" "oh" "well you see we are a band and we are taking a little break" "band what band?" "DBSK" "never heard" "what?" "seriously i never heard of you" "ah awesome not a fan then?" "nope oh hey i guess you will have to worry about my friends though" "why?" "they might know your band" "right well i guess if they come visit we make a plan" "yeah reminds me they are flying in next week" "ok" "i will tell them that you are a cosplayer if they see you ok?" "sure sure" i sat as he made another swan he had a smile on his face it looked like he was trying not to laugh. for the next couple of nights Yoochun and i spent them talking in messages to each other through our windows was this becoming our thing?.
we were pertty funny together i kinda liked him but to be his girlfriend wasnt an option for me because to guys i was never anything more then friends which didnt bother me until now because i think i really liked yoochun alot but even if we were to just stay friends it would be ok.
the morning rose and we hadnt even slept we were too busy writing messages to each other "hey!" "yeah?" "you kept me awake" "you too XD" "yoochun?" "yes?" "i think this is our thing" "yeah we do this every night" "are you upset?" "about what?" "this the message thing?" "no are you?" "no how could i.." "how could you what?" "be upset when i'm.." "your what?" "i'm getting to talk to you.." "aww so sweet i like.." "like what?" "our thing" "me too" "Kimi?" "yeah?" "i like you" "aww i like you too" "cool" "yeah" "ok final message cos we gotta sleep" "yeah" "goodnight" "you too" i watched as he bowed with a smile on his face which made me giggle but i decided to write something and stick it on my window then went downstairs and looked at my mail "darn why did i write that i better take it down before anyone sees it." i yelled as i ran out of the door forgetting about the paper in my window i was to stupid to go back and get it.
"hey where you going?" "ah Junsu erm i gotta go look for a job" "dont you already have one?" "i thought i did i mean they paid for the house and everything" "confused?" "me too" "well i erm here is your ipod" "huh?" "i took it i like your songs" "eh!" i stood shocked i knew people bought my CD's but i didnt know they actually listened to them "you didnt tell anyone else did you?" "erm well" "yo that girl is awesome" Changmin stepped in "erm" "he sorta knows to" "yeah Kimi dont worry i wont tell it was you i will act along ok" "thank you" "erm i gotta go chu see you later ok?" "good" i sorta skipped and ran at the same time trying to get away from them not in a bad way just i was too nervous and i didnt want to be sick i spent a few hours searching for jobs but some reason no one wanted to hire me even with my skills "hmm no luck here either i think i should start my own business" i giggled as i made my way back home it was strange none of the guys were there so i felt a little lost i went inside and made my way to my room to take off the paper then i noticed something "dont go anywhere!" yoochun had written back but what did he mean by the dont go anywhere wait i wrote "i think i kinda really like you!" this was kinda confusing so i sat on my bed and looked around *knock knock* i slowly walked down the stairs to answer the door there he stood with a serious look on his face.

ch7
"erm you ok?" "i'm perfect erm we need to talk" "sorry i didnt mean to write that i.." "shh let me in" "erm oh ok" i let him into the house and closed the door then watched with a confused look on my face as he sat infront of the piano "erm Yoochun?" "i'm leaving" "what erm good luck" "no i mean i am leaving on tour i will be back" "oh well then good luck" "funny we wont be able to do our thing whilst im away" "thats ok" "kimi?" "what?" "you ok?" "yeah" "erm well then why are you crying?" i didnt know i was crying cos if you were you'd be able to feel it but i didnt the tears just fell "im not crying" "then why are your tears falling?" "i dont know" "dont cry its not forever" "i know i was just.." "i know you really kinda like me" "yeah you read the note then?" "yeah it's ok hey i was thinking if you need anything my parents said they'd help" "your parents said that?" "yeah i told them about you seeing as you live next to them" "aww" "dont aww me" "sorry" "chu its ok hey this song sounds pretty you play this?" "i cant play im trrying to but i keep getting it wrong" "hmm i can help if you want" he waved to me to sit next to him i was kinda nervous so i walked slowy towards him and sat next to him i looked at the keys "nervous?" "a little this is my fave song and i dont want to ruin it" "let me play it for you then this song is one of ours you know and then we can both play it ok?" "sure" i sat watching him as he played the song i wanted the song to go on forever "aww" i heard him say as he poked my nose i had somehow not knowingly cuddled into him as he played "ah sorry i didnt" "relax i didnt say anything" i jumped up and turned away "Kimi im gonna miss you whilst im away" "huh dont im not worth the trouble" "huh where did that come from?" "sorry i didnt its just that no one takes the time to even care about me and all of this is kinda strange to me" "aww well get used to it you are one of the family now" "funny" "i mean it you are a new member of DBSK" "yoochun!" i went to run to him but tripped and fell into his arms but that was only because he caught me if he didnt id be on the floor now "be careful" "sorry" i hid my face "you are really clumsy" "i know" "im surprised you havent gotten hurt" "me too erm you can put me down now" "oh right sorry" he scratched his head as we stood looking at the piano "erm you wanna try now?" "sure but no laughing" "would i do that?" he pulled a goofy face which made me wanna laugh "yes you would" "?" "dont give me that look besides i like your laugh" "really" "yep so the song" "oh yeah well i help ok" "sure sure" we sat playing the piano i made alot of mistakes but laughed them off "no like this here" he placed his hands on mine and guided them across the keys as we played each note strange feeling though when he touched my hands it felt like i had been shocked by static you know the saying that sparks will fly if two perfect lovers come across each other? well thats what it felt like only i pretended nothing was wrong it made me wonder if he felt it too? suddenly i pulled them away and got up as quick as i could "something wrong you were doing well" "erm i just i will be right back" "ok" he smiled did he know he did something or was he just playing along?
i walked outside holding my hands when my lights in the house went out it was complete darkness i sat on the ground i didnt like the dark so sitting on the ground in a ball was the only thing i could do.
"kimi you ok i cant see you?" i didnt answer him i just sat there stiff "Kimi?" then he tripped over me he fell onto the floor "s..sorry" "you ok?" "you ok right you fell over me?" "i'm ok but why are you sat there?" "too dark" "you afraid?" "no" "you sure?" "yes im sure" i was lying i had been afraid of the dark since being locked in a room alone when i was a kid i was trying to geet away from some girls trying to beat on me.
suddenly he placed his hands on my eyes "open your eyes" "no" "it's ok i got you" "i cant open them" "trust me" i sat there i wanted to trust him i did trust him i just was scared he pulled me closer to him but kept my eyes covered "open your eyes the lights will come back on soon" "im scared" "i got you" "chu?" "yes Chu" i smiled he said chu i opened my eyes slowly my face was buried into his shirt on his chest i could feel his heart beating "you sure are strange kimi" "sorry" "it's ok here i got a light on my cellphone" he handed me his phone to hold as he went to sort the lights out after five minutes the light on his cell went out i didnt know how to fix it.

ch8.
i stood up and ran right inside it was dark and i had seen way too many horror movies i ran through the kitchen and into the living room and then ran right into Yoochun "argh" i screamed covering my face "woah relax its me calm down" i was shaking i was too scared "aww you are shaking" "phone light went out i dont know how too" is all i could get out before running upstairs and under my bed "Kimi here i made it so it stays on until you press the button erm where are you?" "under here" i whispered grabbing at his leg as he stood next to my bed "erm why?" "my hiding place" "oh" he bent down to the floor and handed me his phone i yawned "tired?" "yeah" "sleep then" "cant too dark" "well if your eyes are closed you wont see it" "no but i know its dark so" "right hey idea" "chu?" "yes chu i will stay with you so if the dark monster tries anything he will have to get past me" he laughed trying to make me feel better but instead it just made him seem silly "chu thank you" "chu no problem" he smiled as he went around to the otherside of the bed and crawled under "see feel better?" "a little" "see" "see what?" "im like your teddy bear" "funny" "thank you" "erm" "whats wrong now?" "nothing is wrong i just your on my skirt" "ah sorry here" he moved a little as he moved my skirt from under him "thanks" "nice" "whats nice wait did you see something you shouldnt have?" "no i just meant this is nice" he giggled i knew he was lying but i liked him so it was ok "yoochun?" "yes?" "goodnight" "nite nite" i placed his phone next to my head suddenly he wrapped his arms around me and pulled closer my eyes opened "you dont mind?" he whispered "no it's warm and comfortable" "yeah i dont mind this either" "chu?" "yes chu i dont mind spending this time with you" "yoochun?" "i heart chu" "i heart chu too" we both giggled we both liked saying the word chu "kimi?" "yeah?" "dream of me ok?" "huh sure" "good" i went to sleep as i lay in his arms in the morning we woke up under the bed still he smiled at me i just lay blinking "nice dreams?" "yep" truthfully i didnt dream i couldnt dream i never had i just didnt want to seem more lame than i already did "my cell helped" "yes thank you here" i handded him the phone before crawling from under the bed and stretching my arms "hey i will be gone for six months will you be ok?" "yeah unless the lights do the same" "just think i am with you ok" "ok" "aww chu cute" "chu?" "yes chu so the song we were playing you know it well?" "i only now know the title cos you told me" "yeah its one of ours" "huh?" "see so you know us" "no just that song and i didnt even know who it was by cos my father played it alot" "well you wanna hear the real song?" "erm sure" "ok well i will be right back" "chu" he smiled after i said chu yes i say it alot then i watched as he went out of the room i went downstairs and into the kitchen to grab some rice crackers "hey so here" Yoochun handed me a CD i stood looking at it "cute chu" "what is?" "the guy on this side" i pointed to him "oh well of course i had to be" he laughed taking the CD and placing it in the stereo and pressed play the song began to play i stood with him listening to it "wow i like it" "me too" "funny" "so i may have to become a fan of the band now" i giggled "well at least if you were you wouldnt be all crazy" "nope cos im not like every other girl" "true you are our cute little kimi" he smiled as he placed his hand on my shoulder now i knew he didnt feel anything for me i was sad but hey at least i get to talk to him "so whene are you leaving?" "what cant you wait to get rid of me?" "no not like that baka" "hmm no i just wanted to cook the kimi special for everyone before you left" "ah awesome ok deal well we leave at the weekend" "ok so i will cook friday then" "sure i tell the others and i look forward to it" "sure sure".
It was tuesday already so i made sure i spent alot of time with yoochun we did our message thing everynight then friday came i was sad but i didnt want to show it.

ch8
"chu so i have set everything up" "cool you made sure you have lots for yoochun?" "ah yes yoochun i made sure i made lots" i was sat talking to yunho and changmin when the slight mention of yoochun made my heart flutter "so Kimi is there something you want to tell us?" Changmin looked yunho glraed at him "what no erm i dont understand?" "well everytime we mention yoochun you get this smile on your face" "no i dont" "see you just did it again" yunho looked at me "i get it" "you do well please explain it to me" i asked him i knew what he knew but "i think our lil kimi is in love" "huh no way yoochun and i are just friends" "yes but you want to be more" this time Junsu walked in holding a box "not true" "are you sure?" "yes" junsu handed me the box i didnt open it i just placed it under the chair i was sitting on then Jeejong walked in "hey so kimi i got a gift for you" "huh?" "remember when we first met?" "yes you were a complete ass" "yes well anyways i got you this" he handed me a pink and white box tied with a white ribbon i opened it and inside were a cute pair of shoes "you said you needed a new pair of shoes when we first met" "chu yes i did but.." "chu i got these for you" "thanks Hero" "Hero?" "yeah my hero i needed new shoes so you are my shoe hero" i giggled but he looked at me confused then he smiled "hero not a bad name i might keep it" junsu and changmin looked at him "i gotta check on something in the kitchen" i made up an excuse and left in a hurry i stood infront of the cooker when Yunho walked in "you ok?" "yeah i mean no i mean yes sorry" "you are not ok are you?" "truthfully no" "i can see that so you need help?" "with what?" "whatever you want?" "erm i can tell you something right and you wont tell anyone?" "sure" "chu?" "yes chu" "pinky promise?" "yes here pinky promise" he held out his pinky i wrapped mine around his "yunho i..am in love with.." "yoochun!" he interupted "erm how?" "because its something i can tell besides he could do worse" "but nothing will ever happen i know that for sure" "why?" "because im always the friend never the girlfriend" "well even if thats true we will still be there for you and you will always be our little kimi" he patted my head then yoochun walked in "whats going on?" "nothing we were just talking cos your little kimi was upset" yunho called me yoochuns as a test to see if he said i wasnt his but he didnt "aww why is my chu upset?" yoochun walked towards yunho who whispered something then left "because i dropped a plate" "ah it's ok here" he handed me a swan "aww i love it thank you" "not a problem i.." he turned and went into the living room with the others i served the food onto plates then placed them on the table then yelled for them to join i sat at the end of the table a little away from the others i watched as they all talked and joked "so kimi how are you gonna cope with out us around?" "easy the same way i have been before i met you" "oh we got served" "yes you did" i giggled then i noticed yoochun glareing at me "hmm everything ok?" "oh erm yeah just" "oh he is upset now" "huh why?" "because you only gave me one portion of the kimi special" yoochun sulked we all giggled so i went inside and got out another plate and put some more on when he walked in grabbed my arm and led me into the living room "kimi whats really going on?" "nothing" "not what yuhno has been telling me" "he doesnt know whats going on either" "dont lie" "im not" "so why do you always look upset its since i told you i was going on tour kimi" "i.. i baka how can you not see it" "see what?" "see exactly nevermind just it doesnt matter we are friends right?" "yes" "so then lets just stay friends.." "what's..." i walked away "its what i always to guy always the friend never anything else" i lowered my head and went back to the table i moved over to jeejong and junsu i sat inbetween them "you ok?" "yes perfect everything is fine" yoochun walked out and sat in my previous place "yoochun?" "yep?" "whats going on?" "nothing i just asked her somethings" "so why is she upset?" "i dunno" "im not upset guys see im happy" i lied and yunho saw it when everyone had finished i stayed to clean up "you need help?" "sure thanks" "so yoochun he was upset" "he was why?" "i dunno he just went quiet and packed his stuff" "im sure he is ok" "yeah but are you?" "look i am fine i have been rejected many times only.." "only this is worse cos you actually love him?" "yes but i will get over it eventually" "true but its gona be hard" "junsu thank you" "no problem" "hey so nice new haircut" "yeah i needed a change" "hmm you know youd look cute with long white hair" "really?" "yosh" "haha ok hmm well i had it like that once" "huh lemme see?" "sure erm i have a picture somewhere tell you what i will find it and email you ok?" "ok you know im gonna miss you guys" "im gonna miss you and the rice crackers you hide well try to hide" "yo jun we gotta get going" "your going tonight?" "yeah i though yoochun told you" "nope he just said weekend" "ah well six months will pass then we can all hang out again" "yeah" jeejong walked in "erm guys?" "what?" "i need to just speak to kimi a second" "ok" "thanks junsu" junsu took the rest of the dishes inside whilst Hero walked next to me "kimi?" "yep?"

ch9
"you know yoochun has had alot of girls right?" "no but i do now" "yeah so he gets kinda stuck when someone actually cares about him" "and?" "he likes you but doesnt know what to do" "well there is a difference between like and love" "you love him?" "yes" "ah so erm maybe he feel the same someday" "im not gonna wait forever" hero scratched his head "i know but just wait a little longer ok?" "sure" "well we gotta go bye" it looked like he was going to sorta cry until junsu and changmin walked in "come on" i watched as they left i felt like my heart was breaking i couldnt breath my last chance to say bye to yoochun but he didnt even say goodbye to me i ran out of the house and yelled to yoochun "chu!" i yelled he turned round and smiled "Yes Chu!" i cried i wanted to run to him but i just stood there as they all stared then yoochun dropped his bags and ran towards me "chu!" "chu" i replied we liked saying chu it had become our thing aswell as the paper messages then he hugged me "just be safe for me" "chu" "yes chu kimi im gonna miss you" "i will always be here forever and always thats my promise to you" "chu?" "yes chu yoochun i..l." "yo yoochun we gotta get going" hero yelled yoochun looked and smiled then kissed my cheek before running to the car i watched as they drove away then fell to the floor "kimi are you ok?" "ah yes perfect" "come on inside" it was his mom she helped me to my feet and took me inside and gave me a cup of tea she could see something was on my mind "you love him ont you?" "yes but im ok with just being a friend to him" "its going to get painful" "i know" "you need to tell him" "i will when i get a chance to" over the next six months yoochuns parents and i spent alot of time talking about yoochun and what i should do next i told them i wanted to start my own business and how i wanted to sing again too eventually six months had passed and it was the night yoochun was coming home i didnt want to see him but before i could go to my house i was stuck in the living room of his parents when he walked in he looked tired but had a smile on his face "mom ive kinda well im dating someone we met on tour" i stood up and walked out passing right by yoochun i walked over to my apartment i wasnt upset i just really wanted to go to sleep so i lay on my bed then got up and close my beroom door before going back to me bed.
"i didnt know kimi was here" "it's ok shes just tired" "oh well erm this is the girl" "ah nice" "yes she is" yoochun left the photo of him and his girlfriend on the side then went into the shower.
I lay on my bed thinking "hmm that was quick" but then i did promise id be there for him no matter what and i always will be even if he has got a girl now im happy for him suddenly my door opened "erm you asleep?" i turned my head round to see junsu and hero standing there "no not asleep" "can we come in?" "erm arent you already?" "oh well" "just close the door behind you then" "sure" i sat up as they walked in hero closed the door behind him before falling onto a beanbag in the corner of my room junsu sat on the end of my bed "so did you guys have fun?" "yes lots oh here i founf the pic for you" junsu handed me a photo "aww wow see you look awesome with this hair" "he does" hero interupted "hey so why are you hiding in here?" "im not i just" "i take it you know about yoochun then?" "yes he just blurted it out i dont think he saw me sitting there" "ah well its his loss" "thanks guys but im not angry" "but you love him" "so doesnt mean i have to be angry at him im happy for him" "aww how sweet" "besides its not like he knows how i feel about him and it will eventually pass all i gotta do is find someone else" i giggled as i took out my CD "kimi is cool" hero smiled we sat talking when junsu stood up and grabbed my shoulder "ouch what then" then he just hgged me out of nowhere "we are all here for you kimi" he whispered "erm dude she cant breath" "ah sorry" he let me go i grabbed my pillow wanting to hit him "erm well thanks for that junsu" "yeah erm sorry" hero laughed then stood up opening the door "well i guess we better let you get some sleep then" he smiled then left junsu sat glaring at me i felt strange..

ch10
"erm arent you going with him?" i stood up walking over to the door pointing him to leave Junsu stood up and walked over to me "Fly free kimi" then left i fell to the floor only one person ever said those words to me and he died "fly free kimi i would fly free but there was no one to come back to i didnt want to fly free unless i had someone i could come home to" i went over to my bed and sat on the end i would usually look out of my window but now i wouldnt dare to.
"hey you know Kimi loves you right" "huh?" "yoochun you nee to see whats right infront of you" his mother placed a photo of myself and yoochun next to yoochun and his girlfriend "what am i supposed to do with this?" "ask yourself if you are truly happy" his mom smiled before leaving him alone the photo of him and i was taken when we were in his garden we were having alot of fun it was the first time in years i have truly smiled we looked happy together like there wasnt anyone else there and it was just the two of us but hey if he is happy with her then i am happy for him.
I woke in the middle of the night i didnt turn my light on i just sat up and looked around then i noticed the light was on in his room i looked there was a peice of paper in his window "sorry Kimi" i sniffled what was he saying sorry for he hadnt done anything wrong i got up and ran downstairs Hero and Junsu were sat talking when i just flew right past them and out of the door i stood on the pavement "yoochun" i yelled for him he walked out of the house "kimi?" "dont say anything just listen" "it's late" "shh just shut up" he stood glaring at me "you dont need to say sorry if you are happy with her and i mean truly happy then go for it i shouldnt matter to you if you love her then i shouldnt matter so please dont think of me think of yourself remember my promise it sticks no matter what" i sniffled before walking inside and sitting infront of the piano much to hero and junsu's shock i began to press keys suddenly Hero walked over taking my hands off the keys before leading me to the sofa pushing me onto it then going back to the piano and began to play my favourite song Junsu sat next to me "it's ok just let it go" "let what go i am ok" "really?" suddenly i felt myself lean on Junsu and began to cry as hero played the song "Hero i think it finally hit her" "yeah well she's bound to be upset considering how she feels about him" "hey guys thank you" "its ok" Hero stood up and left the house leaving Junsu and i on the sofa "Kimi" "im ok thanks fo..." before i could end the sentance Junsu had placed his lips on mine pushing me backwards i didnt know what i had to do but if this was how i was gonna get over yoochun then should i do anything? i pushed him away then got off the sofa "Junsu?" "it's my fault" "why?" before he could answer Hero walked back in "hey so yoochun wants us over with him" "ok" Junsu left quickly i stood shaking nervously "you ok?" "oh yep im fine nothing happened im great" "wait were you two just in the middle of something?" "nope" "did he?" "he what?" "wait Kimi ah i get it you and Junsu have something dont you?" "no way it was just a friendly kiss nothing more" "Eh so you two kissed?" "did i say that i dont think i did" "but yoochun?" "yoochun means everything to me besides he has made it clear i mean nothing to him and besides it was just a friendly kiss nothing more" "right well i wont tell" "it doesnt matter if you did cos it is nothing" "right well then nite" Hero left smiling i sat back down on the sofa then picked up the swan yoochun had made me i stared at it.
i went to the piano and began to play a random note suddenly i felt the need to sing as i began to play the piano alot better then i ever had, "the swan of me becomes lonely as i watch the swan in you pass me by smiling happily as i watch you fly free passing my by, do i wish i could be free? do i wish you could fly back to me? i guess now i know what it feels like when a bird with wings cannot fly free" i sang the words werent ever meant to be heard "woah i guess you do feel bad" "no i just needed to i am happy for him i am i " Yunho walked in i didnt even know he was here "look Little Kimi get over it" "huh i am over it" "good now focus on you hmm what do you really want to do?" i looked at him "i want to sing" "well then sing" "i just did" "ok well you wanna sing a full album?" "huh?" "i can help record it just lemme know ok oh i will even write you a song" "you would do all that for me even though we havent known each other for that long?" "yes no problem" "Yunho you are awesome i wanna sing" "cool so lemme know when" "erm whenever you want" three months passed and Yunho had arranged everything for me to record an album Junsu avoided me like i had the plague hero thought it was funny but yoochun and i still did our chu and message thing.

ch11
i had finished the album and only changmin and yunho had heard it i was kinda fed up with the cd already but changmin wanted a copy so i gave him the only copy there was.
Honestly i missed the time yoochun and i spent cos the only time we spoke was at night through our windows and even then it was about him and his girlfriend Hero somehow got ahold of a copy of my album and insisted i show yoochun i think he kinda thought if i could play in the same ring as yoochun then id have a chance with him seeing as his girlfriend was a singer but i shouldnt have to change just to get with him, i started to feel pretty down and tired alot so i went to the doctors he told me i was sick but not in a normal way it was more like the stress was getting to me and i had to rest and try not to expose myself to as much pain and suffering which is kinda unavoidable for me seeing as i live next door to suffering jokes aside he said that i could get worse if i stress too much my brain will think my heart had stopped and will then stop functioning whci will kill me, i didnt tell anyone i kept it to myself i didnt want to bother them i told my mother and all she said was it was my fault and i will have to deal with it myself.
A new month rolled in i had a date with Junsu finally but only because hero had made him ask so its not a proper date it was more like a friends going out thing i took him to a quiet place so we could talk i had to tell him we were only friends thankfully he agreed so we just went to a theme park as friends i hated theme parks cos i always got crushed by people rushing around "hey kimi you ok?" "huh yeah" "you dont look like it" "i just need to breath" "huh?" "its too cramped" "ah ok we leave then" "thanks" he took my hand and rushed me outside and into a small forest thing it was quiet and pretty finally i caught my breath i thought this was it im dying "Kimi you feel better i was kinda worried" "oh dont be i get panicky in small places" "but it wasnt a small place" "no but it was a crowd" "ah" "hey can i tell you something but only because i might need help when the time comes" "time what time?" "I'm sick Junsu" "huh but you look fine" "yeah on the outside" "KImi?" "its the inside the doctor worried about" "you ok?" "yes well at least i will be if i dont get too stressed" "oh" "see if i get too stressed my brain will convince itself that my heart has stopped and will stop itself killing me the doctor said it was broken heart syndrome kinda like a fariytale thing he said it sounded like" "ah so no more bad things for kimi no more sadness right?" "right but therein lies the problem" "what?" "i live next door to sadness" "as yoochun does he know?" "no and no tell him" "ok but how are you going to be ok?" "i will pretend and convince myself nothing is sad" "right i help" "if you wish" "haha i just thought your gonna die without experiencing love" "and thats funny because?" "sorry" "its ok i think its funny to" Junsu glared at me before taking me home we laughed as we went into my house "ok so thanks for the fun" "no problem goodnight kimi" "night" i closed the door and then skipped into the living room where i fell to the floor in agony my heart hurt i tried to calm my breathing until it stopped.
The morning arrived i had fallen asleep in the living room, there was a paper swan next to my head did yoochun put it there and why didnt he wake me up?
"yo sleepy" i heard Yunho yell from outside "are you getting something to eat now?" he asked i stood up and walked out into the garden where they were all sat eating breakfast "huh?" "we didnt want to wake you cos Junsu wouldnt let us" "oh erm sorry" "its ok what are you eating?" "i dunno but yoochun cooked it" "oh hmm" "yours is here" Yoochun pointed to a plate "thanks" i smiled and walked over sitting down i looked on the plate "a swan?" "i made it for you to cheer you up" "im already happy" "ah well i said id make them for you didnt i?" "yes i love it thanks" i wanted to hug him he was suddenly speaking to me normally again after breakfast hero dragged the others away leaving yoochun and i to talk i was pretty nervous.

ch12
"Junsu told me" "told you what?" "that you werent feeling very well" "oh yeah ive just been a little stressed" "oh and this" he pulled out my CD "you should send this out" "no way that was for friends" "so everyone got a copy except me?" "yes well i didnt want to interupt you and your things" "you never interupt me you should know that by now" "yeah well" i sat and scratched my head confused "you really dont like her do you?" "huh ive never met her and besides its not up to me who you date" "but you are my friend" "yes i know thats what i am to everyone all the time im used to it" "what do you mean?" "nothing nevermind forget i said anything" "kimi are you lying to me?" "no i just said it was nothing erm you want help to clean the dishes?" "sure" i helped him clean them away before going to get changed i heard shouting in the living room so i threw myself down the stairs "whats with the shouting?" "Hero started it" "i was just trying to tell yoochun something but he wount believe me Kimi you need to tell him" Yoochun looked at me i couldnt tell him suddenly i felt a sharp pain in my chest "Kimi? you ok?" "just please stop arguing" "Kimi?" i couldnt breath and i wanted to cry when Junsu ran in "guys please leave" "whats wrong with her?" "nothing just calm down and stop arguing ok" Junsu grabbed me and took me outside and into his car he drove down the street and parked in a spot where it was quiet "Kimi calm down now" "cant breath it hurts" "what ok calm relax its quiet nothing can hurt you i am here shh ok" he looked at me i couldnt breath my heart hurt but he was smiling "Junsu i.. it hurts" "i know just calm down and relax" he kept trying to reassure me it was working little by little until i calmed down "you ok now?" "yes thanks" "no problem i told you not to panic" "i know but hero and yoochun were arguing and then hero told me to tell yoochun how i feel about him and i got scared and and..." i began to panic again until junsu hit me on the head "calm down" "hehe sorry" "its ok jsut stop" "ok" we sat in his car for ages until he took me back home Yoochun was sat waiting for me "you gonna be ok?" "yes" "what are you gonna tell him?" "that i panicked and needed to breath" "ok well he will find out what really is the problem eventually" "well not if you dont tell him feel free to let the others know but not yoochun i dont want him to feel sorry for me" "ok" i bowed then walked towards yoochun "so whats going on?" "nothing i just had a panic attack" "right so are you going to tell me the truth?" "about what?" "what hero was talking about" "not here" "inside then?" "sure" we went inside i looked back at junsu i was pretty worried but i closed the door behind me "kimi are you really ok?" "yes im ok i just need to tell you the truth right and you will stop asking me if i am ok?" "yes" "well the truth is.." Yoochuns cell phone rang so i let him answer it it was kinda lucky cos it just meant i had a little more time to prepare myself for his laughter or him not wanting anything to do with me ever again he walked back in "sorry it was nothing important" he sat down and smiled "so you were saying?" "i was saying the truth is yes erm the truth is" "ok why are you looking so nervous you have never had trouble telling me anything before" "thats the point" "what is" "before" "huh erm" i sat and looked at his swan he made me "ah ok i get it go to your window" he smiled before leaving i ran to my window thinking of what he was upto when i saw him sitting there "so we always talk like this serious stuff right?" he wrote on paper this was out thing and it was true we always told each other important stuff like this i wrote back "yes" "now you can tell me" "yes" "ok" "i love you" i wrote and placed it on my window so i couldnt see his reaction to when i told him i moved away from the window i didnt want to see what he put if he put anything i wanted him to say he was ok with it i wanted him to say anything at this point but he didnt we didnt speak to each other for awhile and if he wanted to say anything to me he would have hero or changmin tell me and in return they relayed what i had to say i guess it was kinda childish but it was him i wouldve been happy to just talk to him.
Three months passed and it was another tour i couldve gone with them but i chose not to which worried Junsu and Yunho because they new what was going on with me but i told them id call them or theyd call me everynight and day to check on me.

ch13
it felt like i was alone again until Junsu emailed me they were a week into the tour and i had to go with them he wouldnt let me be on my own so i flew out to meet him which shocked hero that a flew by myself without any of them being there i made them not to tell yoochun i was here cos he had his girlfriend with him and i didnt want to disturb them.
"so kimi you have a plan?" "for what?" "for winning" "winning what?" "yoochun?" "you know he is a guy right and not a trophy?" "i know but he doesnt look the smae as when he is with you" "huh?" "nothing nothing" "right and no i dont got a plan for him if he wants to be with her i am happy for him" "right so then you can maybe start dating someone too" "yes if im wanted by anyone although to be fair i still love him" "and it will take ages for it to go away i know" "hey Hero whats with the questions?" "nothing just trying to cheer you up" "look i am fine i am happy see" i placed a fake smile on my lips pretending everything was ok Hero and the others didnt tell Yoochun i was there even though hero was trying to get yoochun to split with his girl but i kept foiling his plans seriously hero is like a child it was getting closer to the final night of the tour and suddenly i got this idea in my head about yoochun i went to dinner with hero and Changmin "so kimi i see you have a plan" "huh how the?" "cos you have the same look on your face as i did when i thought up a plan" "erm changmin is he always like this?" "yes pretty much" "awesome so" "so what?" "i had this thought" "ah see i told you" "Changmin do me a favour" "sure" "hit hero on the head" "sure" "ouch Changmin" "i said id do anything for my lil kimi" "thankies Changmin-kun" "not a problem so the thought?" "ah right yeah erm" "erm?" "its more like i had a dream then an idea" "dream?" "yeah i was standing in the crowd at your final live of this tour i was wearing the white bunny sweater Yoochun baought me and you guys were singing Bolero and then i held up this peice of paper with the words i love you on yoochun sees it then stops singing the light shone on me the crowd parted leaving a huge gap Yoochun walks down the stage and runs towards me and takes out a piece of paper and it says i love you too on it and like i said it was a dream it wouldnt ever happen like that in real life cos he doesnt love me he loves her" "no he doesnt" "huh Changmin shh" "he told me he doesnt love her he just likes her" "ah so you think theres a chance for him and kimi?" "possibly" "ok you know something" "no i dont" "yes you do look at your face" "nothing" "tell us" "no cos its jsut a feeling" "tell us" "fine but dont get your hopes up kimi" "like i would" "yes you would but i have a feeling there is more to him than we all think i mean there might be more to his feelings towards kimi than we think" "awesome" "Hero its just a feeling nothing more" "whats a feeling?" Yunho walked in and sat down closely followed by Junsu "ah we were talking about yoochun and kimi" "ah i think he would be better off with kimi" "Junsu dont say that you will curse him and her" "i dont care" "you should" "why?" "hey so kimi had this little dream and i got an idea" "ooh Hero with an idea now thats scary" yunho laughed i laughed too but thats cos i was getting nervous "so kimi this dream?" "ah let hero tell you i just gotta go" "where?" "do i have to tell you?" "ah right ok i got ya" i left them alone cos i didnt want to hear them say how stupid the dream was when i came back Junsu was smiling "erm?" "we got hero's idea too" "oh great well are you gonna let me in on it?" "nope ah Yoochun here" "erm hide" "where?" "under the table quick" i ducked under the table luckily there was a table cover that reached the floor i sat near Hero and listened to them talking yoochun sounded sad and sick "so hows kimi?" "havent you asked her yourself?" "im afraid too" "why?" "because she told me something important and i didnt answer her" "its ok shes ok by the way" "good i hate leaving her alone when we go on these things" "you know you care for her alot considering shes just a friend" "so what shes important to me" "ah right and not to us?" "i didnt say that" "anyways shouldnt you talk to her she thinks you hate her after what she said to you" "huh no i cant i dont deserve to speak to her again" "you know she is worried about you" "why after the way i treated her" "see thats why she is perfect for you" "ah well im with the other girl now" "ah speaking of her how is she?" "she's well she's clingy and all she talks about is the band this the band that" "so why put up with it?" "because she is cute" "and nothing else?" "if i didnt want to be on my own again id get it over with" "right so Kimi" "yeah she's well i.."

ch14
"yey there he is my yoochun" "great" he whispered as his girl runs in and sits on his lap "how are you boys?" "great thanks" Hero sighed i pinched him "eh ouch erm everything is great" "right so what were you boys talking about?" "Kimi" "Changmin shh" "that girl Yoochun keeps calling out in his sleep ooh she is annoying" "but you have never met her" "i dont need to she sounds annoying besides she cant have my chun" "but shes way better than you" Hero and Changmin mumble "what?" "nothing i just said wow you are funny" nice lie hero at this point i wanted to get up and hit her she was so wrong for him but i stayed quiet as they all spoke about me his girlfriend calling me all the names under the sun finally when she left i heard yoochun sigh "yeah yoochun she is perfect" "dont try be funny you think if i had someone to go back to i wouldnt end it with her?" "you do have someone" "what?" "i said baka you have someone" changming stopped hero before he went too far "erm hero chill man" "sorry but that girl is ugly both her and her personality is yucky" "we know but its up to yoochun not us so sit down" Junsu got up and walked out "Kimi eserve more than this" Yunho replied and followed Junsu "whats kimi got to do with this?" "nothing shes just awesome" "kimi is pretty inside and out" hero mumbled "hey truthfully" "what?" "right ok so question time ok?" "sure" "you gotta answer with truth" "ok" Hero,Changmin and yoochun sat there i was nervous under the table i grabbed hero's leg "ok so changmin first" "yup" "if you were stuck in a room with kimi and there was an open window you could only reach if you stood on something what would you do?" "simple id tell kimi to stand on me and get out first" "right hero's next" "if there was only one piece of cake left and you wanted it really badly but kimi wanted it to but she kept telling you to take it what would you do?" Hero looked at his feet i was sat glaring at him "id tell her she needed it and i would do without it but then if she kept denieing it id just feed it to her" hero laughed i poked him but i wanted to laugh "ok yoochun if you could only say something to kimi before she left forever what would it be?" hero asked knowing it was a pretty hard question "simple id tell her i love her" i didnt hear what he said cos i was too busy covering my ears i didnt want to hear him say something i didnt want to hear "hey that was quick did you even think about it..wait did you just say?" "yes i did" "so why havent you told her?" "because im here and she isnt" "well tell her when you get back then" "she isnt speaking to me" "and thats a reason to not tell her write it then you know in the window message thing you guys do" "chu i miss her" "whats with the chu?" "oh its something she and i say to each other i miss saying it to her" "aww cute" "funny well we better pay for this stuff then" "yes i will this time" "what hero hasnt paid for anything ever" "we know lets go before he chages his mind" changmin giggled i waited until he and yoochun had left "its safe now" "phew thanks and aww you'd feed me cake" "funny i had to say something cos its cake if that ever happend you'd have to fight me for it" "yes and id win" "not with cake you wont co i love cake" "sure sure" hero checked to see if yoochun had gone before taking me back to my hotel i still didnt know what yoochun had said his last words to me were and hero wouldnt tell me "so it near the final live?" "yep and are you gonna wear the sweater he baought you?" "yes if my dream came true it be the greatest moment in my life ever" "aww you not had many of those moments then?" "nope well except when i found my fathers piano" "ah yeah its pretty" "yep i can play it a little better now too" "good well goodnight" "night" hero left and i flew onto the bed i stayed in the room until the night of the final live i told Hero to come get me before the live started and to not tell yoochun i was going.

ch15
"kimi you ready?" "yep" "ok well i got someone to walk with you to the live you have all the passes and stuff" "awesome" hero left me with a friend of his who walked with me to the live we went inside and waited with the rest of the fans i secretly had the piece of paper in my pocket that said i love you just incase the countdown started and the fans screamed i just stood there with my hood up the band came onstage hero and changmin spotted me right away i shook my head i watched as they performed each song then it got to bolero my favourite song and the part in my dream where yoochun finally tells me but when it got to the end of the song i was kinda sad Changmin whispered to yoochun during the song he looked at the big screen behind them there was our picture "what?" "you" i stared at the screen what was happening "erm sorry about this there seems to be a fault with the screen" Yunho smiled as he said the words the fans all stared but the screamed yoochun looked at the floor when hero walked upto him and put his arm around him "yoochun are you ok?" he whispered yoochun lifted up his head he was crying "no im not ok sorry everyone i just feel a little down" the fans screamed back that it was ok then the light was shone into the crowd i dunno where cos i was looking at the floor after seeing yoochun in tears it made me cry "you the one in the bunny sweater" "huh?" i looked up "could you take off your hood please?" Hero was talking to me the crowd had moved away from me i thought i was sick or something i took off my hood and looked forward "Kimi?" "i nodded as changming yelled out my name yoochun looked at me then dropped his mic before running and jumping down from the stage i looked at the floor "kimi look" i shook my head "look up baka" i didnt then all i heard was "chu!" i looked up yoochun was stood infront of me "chu?" i sniffled then i watched hi as he placed his hands into his shirt and pulled out a piece of paper then unfolded it he smiled at me as i read it "i love you too" the paper was shaking in his hands "yoochun?" "sorry i took too long" i looked at him suddenly i felt a sharp pain it was my heart again i couldnt breath yoochun looked worried as he grabbed me i dug my fingers into his arm as he held me "yoochun kiss her now" Junsu yelled "she's" "just kiss her" "i cant" "it will save her just kiss her now" hero and changmin joined in "kiss her kiss her" the crowd chanted "she's not breathing right" "just kiss her if you want to save her kiss her" Junsu and Yunho ran down and crowded around "kiss her now" Yunho mumbled as he hit yoochun suddenly yoochun leant in and kissed me he placed a hand on my cheek i place my arms around his shoulders "finally" Yunho sighed.
After the live yoochun stayed with me to make sure i was ok "so what was wrong with you?" "remember when i told you i was sick?" "yes" "well thats is why i was suffering from broken heart syndrome" "huh?" "to put it simply all of the bad stuff took its toll on my heart and made me sick but im getting better" "good cos we have alot to talk about" eventually i fell asleep.
i woke up on the floor Yunho and Changmin stood above me "erm time to get up now" "yeah i kinda guessed that but why are you standing around me?" "we thought you had gone" "no way i just mustve fell out of bed wheres yoochun?" "breakfast he told us to look after you" "hmm ok erm sorry i look pretty bad when ive just first woken up" "no you dont you should see hero first thing now thats bad" yunho laughed "hero speaking of him where is he?" "bathroom" "good imma gonna have to speak to him" "ooh he going to get yelled at" "yes" Hero walked out of the bathroom "she awake now?" "erm im stadning right next to you by the way why did you do that at the live?" "your dream remember" "yes but you didnt have to make him cry" "yoochun cries alot" "so dont do it again or else...ouch" the pain again i couldnt breath again i grabbed my chest hero and changmin panicked "what the someone do something" "i dunno what to do" "erm try calm her down" "yunho i cant breath" "i know just calm down everything is good" "it hurts" suddenly i fell to the floor gasping for air all i saw was hero and changmin run out of the room "yunho i dont want to die not now" "you wont just calm down erm think of your fave things" "it hurts" "i know i know erm shh erm what do i do?" "ou...ouch Chu?" "yes chu good chu keep going chu"

ch16
"chu" *sniffle* i couldnt breath right and yunho kept saying chu it was cute but it want working "where is yoochun?" the door opened in walked junsu "what the oh no is she?" "i dunno she hasnt moved for awhile i think she is ok" "you havent checked?" "im too scared to i tried everything to calm her down but not even the chu worked" "great ok ok erm i know get some water see if she feels that" "nope not working ok where is yoochun?" "i dunno he said he was getting breakfast" "ok erm help me put her on the bed" "ok what now?" "erm you go find yoochun quick i will try everything to get her back" "ok ok but careful" "sure" Junsu panicked and and held me in his arms trying to get me to respond to him "ok kimi remember yoochun and his chu" "whats going on kimi?" "she just sorta panicked and we tried everything but nothing" "let go get out please" "yoochun you need to be calm or else" "i know but she is mine" "yo fool listen to me" "what?" "she cant suffer any more sadness or pain she needs to get better she needs love and happiness" "i know" "ok well i hope" "just please leave" Junsu left closing the door behind him yoochun stood over my body looking down "believe me chu!" he whispered before leaning over my placing a kiss on my lips "chu!" he whispered i grabbed his arm "chu" i smiled "your back good" "where did i go?" "you left us here for awhile" "i did?" "yes" "sorry i guess i am too much trouble for you" "no never im just glad we still have our chu" "haha yeah erm im kinda hungry" "yeah so you are erm i bought us some" "awesome the others too?" "yes others too" "where are the guys?" "outside" "why?" "i will get them" "okies" i sat up and watched as they all walk in "shes back?" "yes" "great wow i was kinda worried there" "yeah me too you scare us too much kimi" "sorry tell you what when we get back i will cook lots of kimi special" "yes" Junsu yelled "ok calm down"
when we got back home i made the kimi special three months had passed since the live and i was getting better i still had the attacks but they were getting lesser and lesser and chu worked all the time yoochun and i still hadnt gone on our first date yet hero and changmin were sorting him out about that.
"when are you making it officail with kimi?" "what do you mean?" "you havent taken her on a date yet" "im trying to sort something out" "ooh like what? "surprise her" "awesome"
"hey kimi lets hear how good you have gotten on the piano" "sure erm i kinda only been playing this song" "oh ok well give it your best shot" i sat next to yunho and hero at the paino and smiled before playing the song without any mistakes "wow you got pretty good" "yup i love this song and ive finally managed to play my fathers favourite song now too" "awesome" "you wanna hear it?" "yes" i played the song i was nervouse and stopped halfway through to catch my breath yunho panicked "im ok i just needed to catch my breath geeze you guys are jumpy" "well after what we saw its kinda scary" "you think so?" "know so" "sorry for making you guys worry" i looked down "hey a swan" "huh yoochun again?" "theres a note" "ooh read it" "my pretty bird fly free fly to me follow the swans become to me my gentle swan~yoochun~ chu!" i looked at yunho "aww yoochun got all romantic go to him" "uh huh erm" "dont worry be calm its a good thing remember that go" hero smiled opening the door there were origami swans lined up as a trail to follow "erm do i look ok?" "you look perfect like the beautiful swan you are now go" Hero smiled i bowed to him before following the swans until i found myself in a candlelit garden hidden by trees and roses the trail ended infront of a swan floating around in a bowl of water i walked up to it and watched as it spun around.

ch17
"pretty" "now you can fly free" i turned round yoochun was standing holding onto a paper swan he was wearing a white suit and a silver and white mask "yoochun?" "come to me" he was trying to be cute im guessing so i walked to him "fly" he took me by the hand and spun me around so my back was to him he lowered his head so it rested on my shoulder "i promised i would teach you how to make swans give me your hands" i placed my hands in his as he guided them into making a swan "i did it" "yes you did and such a pretty one too" "yoochun thank you" *sniffle* i began to cry i was happy an he was sexy in the outfit he was wearing "you ok?" "yes im just happy" "im glad to see you happy" "im only happy cos im with you" "i know come on sit with me" "sure" i followed as he walked over to a white silk blanket on the ground "for my swan" "aww yoochun your so cute" "yep but only for you" he sat down pulling me onto his lap and wrapping his arms around my waist "erm so why the mask?" "cos im your swan prince" "chu?" "yes chu" i turned round to face him "so are you sure you want me?" "what kind of question is that?" "a simple one" "then yes i am sure" i began to cry again but i placed my hands over my face "dont hide" "i have to" "why?" "cos im crying again" "so please dont hide from me" he pulled my hands away from my face my tears falling onto his skin "shh dont cry" "sorry" "i know what will make you feel better" "huh?" he gently placed a kiss onto my neck i gasped it felt heavenly